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whatstheporpoise15
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- Jul 5, 2022
- 49
I'm just so fucking tired of being a burden to my family. Psychiatric drugs have screwed me over and I've been on them for so long that I'll never be off. I tried so fucking hard to overcome my demons and create a life for myself and it always comes down to those shitty pills and shitty psychiatrists. And then I see someone my age who has a successful job and runs marathons and is married, and it just reminds me of what I failure I am. I wish I could wake up one day standing in front of a train or with someone holding a gun to my head—or better yet, just not wake up at all. To stop burdening everyone who somehow, despite what a shitty person I am, happens to love me.