hitting my head?

[sunandstars06]

Can I hit my head on the ground hard enough to at least put myself in a coma?
I want to cbt but I can't bring myself to break my family by finding me fully dead.
I just need a fucking break I can;t fucking take this anymore

 

[BigGimpin]

No I dont think so, what are you struggling with? Please elaborate, this is a great place to air your frustrations and get sound advice, spill it.

 

[Red Scare]

Wow, have you considered drugs?

 

[sunandstars06]

Wow, have you considered drugs?

I don't want anything to show in a blood test that'll put me in a psych ward.

Wow, have you considered drugs?

I also have a previous OD on record and they'd know immediately.

No I dont think so, what are you struggling with? Please elaborate, this is a great place to air your frustrations and get sound advice, spill it.

I have had severely treatment resistant depression that has waxed and waned since my young teenage years. When it gets bad, I lose years at a time. I recently got extremely sick, like lost 20 pounds because I couldn't keep food down sick, had surgery, my partner and love of my life whom I live with broke up with me, I have no idea how I'm going to keep my apartment. I have 2 jobs that I'm on the brink of losing from being in the hospital so much. I had been functioning at full throttle while being fucking dead inside. Ruined the relationship with the person I was going to marry because I can't function like a normal human being, have 0 friends who didnt stop giving a shit years ago, and am just done. I am only actively alive because of my parents and sister, whom it would destroy to know I'd taken my own life. Need to find a way for it to be construed as not purposeful.

 

[BigGimpin]

one of , my good friends ran FULL speed into a concrete wall, all he suffered was a broken neck

 

[sunandstars06]

one of , my good friends ran FULL speed into a concrete wall, all he suffered was a broken neck

shit. do you think itd be any different if i laid down and just smacked my head

 

[symphony]

shit. do you think itd be any different if i laid down and just smacked my head

Odds not good. I've done exactly that and walked away with a headache and some bumps. Granted, I wasn't aiming for unconsciousness so I didn't do it as hard as you possibly could. Even so, I doubt you'd end up in a full-on coma, but you'd likely get a concussion.

 

[summers]

Unless you're hitting your head after falling at least 50 feet, you're going to get a concussion, brain bleed and probably wind up mentally handicapped. Have a fun life with that, I'm sure it would be so much better than the relatively healthy life you have now.

 

[BigGimpin]

shit. do you think itd be any different if i laid down and just smacked my head

no unless maybe you use a hammer that penetrates your skull making contact with you brain'
get some N

 

[sunandstars06]

Unless you're hitting your head after falling at least 50 feet, you're going to get a concussion, brain bleed and probably wind up mentally handicapped. Have a fun life with that, I'm sure it would be so much better than the relatively healthy life you have now.

I'm currently the opposite of physically healthy and frankly being brain dead sounds a lot more enticing than having to face this bullshit every day. Guess ill just jump

 

[BigGimpin]

I'm currently the opposite of physically healthy and frankly being brain dead sounds a lot more enticing than having to face this bullshit every day. Guess ill just jump

I can totally relate, I have been in a wheelchair 37 of my 52 years

 

[summers]

I'm currently the opposite of physically healthy and frankly being brain dead sounds a lot more enticing than having to face this bullshit every day. Guess ill just jump

My point is that at least you are mentally capable of making the choice to end your life and carrying out a plan to do so. If you wind up mentally handicapped, you may lose the ability to do one or both. It doesn't mean that you are going to be unaware of your situation, just that you may not be able to do anything about it.

This is exactly why failing an attempt, depending on the method can be so terrible. It's also why most ss members will always encourage taking a step back, evaluating your options, and only proceeding when you're sure about you choice and plan.

I'm not suggesting you jump, just that impacts to the head can have very different consequences for different people, even under the same conditions. Please really evaluate what is the best path forward for you. I hope you're able to come up with a peaceful approach.

 

[Shu]

I can totally relate, I have been in a wheelchair 37 of my 52 years

Since you were 16? Goodness man..

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds so awful and unbearable what you are going through. I'm sorry that you are suffering so much. I hope you find relief from your pain in whatever happens.

 

[Crazy4u]

please don't do it. If you want to pass out maybe OD on sleeping supplements? nothing good can come out of hitting your head. I know you are angry but you won't feel better

 

[willitpass]

i used to bang my head as hard as i possibly could as a form of self harm. your body will not let you hit it hard enough to do actual damage. it's hard wired into you to not be able to do it. you can hit your head as hard as you want but your body has safe guards in place so all you end up with is a headache and possible biting your tongue on accident. oh and the sensation of your eyes vibrating. not even a concussion though.

 

[downndone2]

Probably just a concussion and post concussive syndrome