Hinted to my therapist that I want to CTB.

[sincerely dead]

I know we have a relationship built in trust and he isn't one to jump the gun and call the authorities right away.

I've made him the beneficiary on my bank accounts and I want him to take my dog.

He has taken my dog before to watch him when I went into surgery and also left my abusive situation.

My therapist said he won't take my dog if I catch the bus.

I wish he would.

I don't think he thinks I'm actually ready to CTB, on a forum, ordering SN, etc. I think he thinks I'm considering it.

I hate looking him in the eye because he lost his sister to suicide and I know this will crush him.

I wish I could prepare him more but…. hopefully he can use my savings for something fun for himself.

 

[Huntfish34]

Dang damn, that sounds like an awkward situation to say the Least. I agree; with the trust factor, bank account, dog situation.... I really wouldn't want to look him in the eye either. ( especially since he lost his sister that way )

Sorry I don't have much of value to say, but I hope that everything works out in the end for you both. ( and your dog! =)

Godspeed- ♥

 

[sincerely dead]

Dang damn, that sounds like an awkward situation to say the Least. I agree; with the trust factor, bank account, dog situation.... I really wouldn't want to look him in the eye either. ( especially since he lost his sister that way )

Sorry I don't have much of value to say, but I hope that everything works out in the end for you both. ( and your dog! =)

Godspeed- ♥

Am i a bad person for this? Ugh i feel so guilty

 

[SentimentalTrip]

Wow, it's amazing that you feel close enough to your therapist that you would be willing make him the beneficiary on your bank account.

I've spoken to six therapists and I never felt close or open with them at all. My therapeutic relationships always felt so clinical.

 

[cami]

wow, you guys are really close. if it brings you comfort, he sounds like a good guy. even if he didnt take your dog im sure he would find it a good home.

 

[Huntfish34]

I don't think it makes you a bad person at all, just struggling... Maybe lost, hurt, broken.... but nothing bad. Just my. 02.

 

[FuneralCry]

At least doing that didn't cause you to get locked in a psych ward, as those places sound so horrible to me.