Smilla
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- Apr 30, 2018
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Who here had a horrific high school experience which scarred them for life?
Me. They were the worst days of my life and marked me forever. Even if I had no bullies, fuck it, only remembering high school drives me to anxiety.
High school days are shitty days. My problems came mainly from them like you. I literally have nightmares thinking I'm still on that hellhole.Same here, I don't have any particular trauma from those days but the overall experience was horrible, I'm 29 now and I can trace all my actual problems in every aspect of my life to that period.
Lol same here manI literally have nightmares thinking I'm still on that hellhole.
I wonder if the movies represent what those times could be.It's Funny Cuz i hated high school, but I love Teen Movies.
Do You Have A Favorite?I wonder if the movies represent what those times could be.
I don't watch enough movies in general so I have to try Superbad and Submarine :D The only one I can think of is Breakfast Club and I absolutely love it :DDo You Have A Favorite?
A Couple Are Superbad & Submarie.
I cry like a bitch at that movie. Thanks for the thought. I Might Have My Day Planned Out. plz watch it's only 8 secI don't watch enough movies in general so I have to try Superbad and Submarine :D The only one I can think of is Breakfast Club and I absolutely love it :D
I don't watch enough movies in general so I have to try Superbad and Submarine :D The only one I can think of is Breakfast Club and I absolutely love it :D
Smilla... I'm 41 y/o and one of my recurring dreams or nightmares is that I'm stuck in high school and I can't get out. Like I'm wandering the hallways with lots of kids everywhere and I'm looking for the right office so I can drop out and I can't find it. In fact I just had 1 the other night.
And it's because I had a horrible high school experience. For starters it took me 6 years to graduate high school mainly because I started working 2 days after my 16th Birthday in the 10th grade and by the time I was 17 I was working up to 45 hours a week after school from 5:00pm till either 12:00am or 1:00am because I had a car payment, Car insurance, and gas for my car to pay... not to mention I wanted nice clothes, video games, music cd's, and other stuff.
Also my mom wouldn't let me drop out, go to summer school or even get a GED even though college wasn't an issue or an option in my life back then.
And that's just for starters!
I went to a private boarding school for high school. My parents couldn't afford it, but my mother (Being the narcissist she was) glamoured and sneered at others at every opportunity when I was with her (Imagine, super markets, parks, restaurants, doctors offices, hospitals, etc) about how her 'superior' son went to an elite private boarding school. She intentionally made others feel uncomfortable and was incredibly passive aggressive in her demeanor.
9th - almost all of 11th grade I went to this school. I had a handful of foreign friends (Mostly Asian) who I was able to somewhat identify with because of their strict parents. We hung out a lot and I never really felt.. Alone? When junior year hit, I started to respond to the essentially constant neglect and abuse that I had went through. I started smoking cigarettes, skipping classes, and hanging out with a group of Albanians from across town. The school's initial response was pretty relaxed about the whole thing, they wanted me gone for a long time. I never made the grades, and I maintained a 2.3 GPA throughout freshmen and sophomore year. Junior year dropped my GPA down to a 1.4
Initially the school just called my parents, told them I had been missing classes, and smelled like cigarettes. My room was trashed as a result and any sort of allowance I was given was stripped (Meanwhile my 12 year old brother is smoking pot, and my parents did not give a fuck). I responded pretty poorly to the whole trashing of my room and not being given any sort of allowance. I stole my mothers jewelry and pawned it to my Albanian friends. I sort of figured that I'm underweight, unhealthy, and my mother has all these nice things, while she spends my child support on herself. She takes me to the salvation army for clothing, while my step-brother and step-sister are wearing brand new clothing from the mall.
So of course, by this time it's December. My mom suspects someone is stealing her jewelry, and because my drug addict brother (Who graduated to downers and sleeping pills) is incapable of such an action, I am the one solely responsible. My parents confronted my Albanian friends (lol) when they came to pick me up, and made a scene. Eventually the police showed up and the Albanians were advised to not come near my house. All of my gundam models were smashed and trashed. I had a hobby of restoring and building electronics like radios and clocks, which were also smashed. My SNES and PS2 were also smashed. I'm fairly certain I probably lost over $500 dollars in games, that I paid for from working for my dad (Who my mother divorced when I was 5 months old).
So January, I get a job at a local burger king. I help my Albanian friends get a job there. We hang out and have a good time. Eventually, my mother finds out that the Albanians are working there, and goes in and makes a tremendous scene. Well, I get fired. I double down on my mother and tell the Dean to 'Go fuck himself' and leave school and refuse to return for a week. I run off and stay at a friends house until my mother threatens to call the police. I begrudgingly return home.
By this time it is March, and I have been placed onto permanent probation with the school, If I skip class or break the rules, I will be kicked out. I don't want this to happen. So the agreement with the dean is that I have to attend daily meetings with the school social worker and my class load is modified. His reasoning for this is because 'You're attitude and temperament are not in line with the values of this school.' My response is 'fuck that.' I don't skip classes out of fear of what my mother will do, but I do skip with the social worker. I have zero interest in sitting down with some asshole and discussing my feelings or issues. I don't care.
Around late march, I meet a group of girls that go to a nearby Catholic school. I eventually lose my virginity to one of them and I eventually sleep with all of them. In late April, I was caught getting head from one of them on school grounds (It was totally worth it) and I was thrown out of school. That day my mother took me to a psychiatrist who without even asking me a single question, having me fill out a paper test, and listening solely to my mother diagnosed me as 'bipolar' (lol) and sent me to a psychward for inpatient for 3 weeks.
When I got out, I was put into public school and sent to an alternative school with no friends and absolutely no fucking way to relate to anyone there. I was forced to stay a semester past my senior year. And I was medicated on god knows how many fucking drugs.
Fuck high school.
Who here had a horrific high school experience which scarred them for life?