you could be fearless in all other aspects of your life but this is a very extreme thing to do in a biological inbuilt human instinct kind of way- and there there is the arguement (as some may call it-or like to bring up) that perhaps you could channel that fearlessness to face head on whatever has gone wrong in your life and try to overcome it in some way- of course that is just one angle and I mean it as in the old-explore ALL possible options first & then know that ctb can always still be there as an option. Do you want to share what made you feel this way lately?
There's no simple answer. Only you will know if you reach the point where you are seriously considering "CTB".
It's just that I recently discovered I have gone into depression, and I can't tell anyone 'cause they would just right it off. I actually tried telling one of my 'supposed' closest friend and even my parents, but the former told me that I was getting stressed for no reason and the latter got angry and accused me of being lazy. It's just, I don't want to die; at least not completely. I mean, there's got to be more, right? Or maybe I'm just being to optimistic 'cause I am relatively new to this.
Perhaps you could start by asking to talk to your parents about "something important", and explain to them the problems you are facing. If they have some "spiritual maturity" to them, then they would try to help you, and support you in seeking help. If not, then you will need to seek out help yourself. In this modern age, there is some understanding that people who appear to be completely fine, may not in fact be fine. So you don't need to feel ashamed about asking for help. However, you need to find someone who seems to really care. Something should feel good or right when you talk to them. If not, then I would say they're not the right person to help you. And I would try to avoid medication at all costs ( except perhaps as a very last resort if all else has failed, and even then I'd have to think twice and twice again ).
