felixwasabsurd
Lover of absurdity
- Sep 19, 2023
- 23
I tried to step away from this site because i thought maybe voicing my desires of death to the world and being met with understanding was somehow making me miserable, I don't know I was desperate for a reason to "get better"
Life has only gotten more uncomfortable, I broke up with my partner and still I have to see them almost everyday at uni, I'm trying to focus on my friends but if I do ctb they'll have a new person in the group to take my place, I'm grateful for that.
I said I wanted to do it at the end of December, but I'm getting tired of waiting, I keep thinking maybe something will finally take me out. The cancer that runs in the family my insane smoking habit the consequences of my teenage drug addiction maybe a fucking bus will break my neck on my way to therapy who knows. It's just not happening yet, and I'm tired of waiting.
Life has only gotten more uncomfortable, I broke up with my partner and still I have to see them almost everyday at uni, I'm trying to focus on my friends but if I do ctb they'll have a new person in the group to take my place, I'm grateful for that.
I said I wanted to do it at the end of December, but I'm getting tired of waiting, I keep thinking maybe something will finally take me out. The cancer that runs in the family my insane smoking habit the consequences of my teenage drug addiction maybe a fucking bus will break my neck on my way to therapy who knows. It's just not happening yet, and I'm tired of waiting.
