Hi im new
Never imagined my life would get to this point. I mean I've always suffered with anxiety and depression but for the last three years it's been a rapid downwards spiral to the point I can't seem to pull the energy to do anything. I neglect myself and barely go out. I became addicted to prescription meds after o was put on them for an operation 11 years ago. I didn't mean to get addicted but crap circumstances and a very mentally abusive relationship caused me to lean on them more and I admit, they made me feel brilliant for a long time....untill they didnt and sucked every bit of life out of me that I had. I dunno, I so badly want help but I just fear I won't be able to fight my demons. Anyway it's good to be here and thanks for having me.
I write poetry to try unload my thoughts so here's one for you all.
Sinking into the abyss, darkness uncomfortably suffocating
Climbing the walls within, depleted and frustrating.
Finding it hard to breathe, panic burdens my mind
Struggling to keep up the fight when the world is so unkind
Fearing there's no way out, loosing hope as the days drift by
Thoughts that I can't erase, a deep hunger to drift off and die
Years of climbing this mountain, my body aches with pain
The peace and happiness of reaching the top, I fear I'll never gain.
Ionging for someone to pull me out, to live my life in peace
The struggle is real, though I try to conceal
Im praying for some kind of relief
Never imagined my life would get to this point. I mean I've always suffered with anxiety and depression but for the last three years it's been a rapid downwards spiral to the point I can't seem to pull the energy to do anything. I neglect myself and barely go out. I became addicted to prescription meds after o was put on them for an operation 11 years ago. I didn't mean to get addicted but crap circumstances and a very mentally abusive relationship caused me to lean on them more and I admit, they made me feel brilliant for a long time....untill they didnt and sucked every bit of life out of me that I had. I dunno, I so badly want help but I just fear I won't be able to fight my demons. Anyway it's good to be here and thanks for having me.
I write poetry to try unload my thoughts so here's one for you all.
Sinking into the abyss, darkness uncomfortably suffocating
Climbing the walls within, depleted and frustrating.
Finding it hard to breathe, panic burdens my mind
Struggling to keep up the fight when the world is so unkind
Fearing there's no way out, loosing hope as the days drift by
Thoughts that I can't erase, a deep hunger to drift off and die
Years of climbing this mountain, my body aches with pain
The peace and happiness of reaching the top, I fear I'll never gain.
Ionging for someone to pull me out, to live my life in peace
The struggle is real, though I try to conceal
Im praying for some kind of relief
I'm just slowly learning to navigate around the forum. I'm sure I will enjoy my stay here. ❤
