BabyYoda
F*ck this sh!t I'm out
- Dec 30, 2019
- 552
I just keep seeing posts on social media that make me feel worse about myself. One of them was about how desiring someone to "save" you in a relationship is considered toxic behavior and it immediately made me feel extremely anxious that I was somehow manipulative according to those people who agree. The thought of being called such for something that is beyond control shakes me to the core. The person who shared it wrote "I like helping people but don't depend on me at your worst" which is terrifying because it means that a person like her will abandon me when I need help the most. Why can't we accept that self love has limitations as well?
This is all a huge reason why if I turn out to be toxic I'll just get rid of myself so no one would have to bother with me. I no longer feel safe anymore because I can't just talk about my personal problems to anyone without being backstabbed. Worse is how it is being justified nowadays. I thought being toxic only meant direct physical or emotional attacks towards a person, but it's now defined as not fitting in into someone's convenience.
Ok, I accept that I have limitations, everyone does. But I find myself hurt knowing that people are tolerating unkindness towards others. If I could solve my problems on my own, then why would I still be asking for help? It's very insensitive to tell someone that "they need to handle themselves at their worst" but go through the easy tasks for them. Of course, not everyone is capable of solving certain problems, but it doesn't mean that a person should have to carry a burden alone. For example, I cannot treat a coronavirus patient because I am not a doctor, but I can help that person with (some) finances (I am still in school lmao, so it would be a very very small amount) AND if I can, their psychological health due to the anxiety and panic going around. Me not being able to treat them does not imply that the person will treat themselves ON THEIR OWN. There are doctors and other medical professionals who work non stop just to fight this big boss. Yes, they are in a way sacrificing themselves for society. Yes, they are in a way helping a person "at their worst". If you only care about treating the very treatable headache and running away when a crisis comes, then you shouldn't become a medical practitioner.
Another problem: will that person have enough finances for all of this? Sure, for the upper class people, yes. Not so much for the lower class. There are several factors contributing to why they're poor, which I will not elaborate here. I would smash a door if I hear a pro lifer preaching about how precious life is and expecting the more marginalized people to "get over it". You talk about how beautiful life is, but why can't you help them with their healthcare? Pro lifers glorify selfishness by treating people like disposable masks but apparently to them the only time selfishness is bad is in the context of suicide. "tHiNk AbOuT oThErS" they say, when obviously you are suffering an unbearable amount of pain.
This is all a huge reason why if I turn out to be toxic I'll just get rid of myself so no one would have to bother with me. I no longer feel safe anymore because I can't just talk about my personal problems to anyone without being backstabbed. Worse is how it is being justified nowadays. I thought being toxic only meant direct physical or emotional attacks towards a person, but it's now defined as not fitting in into someone's convenience.
Ok, I accept that I have limitations, everyone does. But I find myself hurt knowing that people are tolerating unkindness towards others. If I could solve my problems on my own, then why would I still be asking for help? It's very insensitive to tell someone that "they need to handle themselves at their worst" but go through the easy tasks for them. Of course, not everyone is capable of solving certain problems, but it doesn't mean that a person should have to carry a burden alone. For example, I cannot treat a coronavirus patient because I am not a doctor, but I can help that person with (some) finances (I am still in school lmao, so it would be a very very small amount) AND if I can, their psychological health due to the anxiety and panic going around. Me not being able to treat them does not imply that the person will treat themselves ON THEIR OWN. There are doctors and other medical professionals who work non stop just to fight this big boss. Yes, they are in a way sacrificing themselves for society. Yes, they are in a way helping a person "at their worst". If you only care about treating the very treatable headache and running away when a crisis comes, then you shouldn't become a medical practitioner.
Another problem: will that person have enough finances for all of this? Sure, for the upper class people, yes. Not so much for the lower class. There are several factors contributing to why they're poor, which I will not elaborate here. I would smash a door if I hear a pro lifer preaching about how precious life is and expecting the more marginalized people to "get over it". You talk about how beautiful life is, but why can't you help them with their healthcare? Pro lifers glorify selfishness by treating people like disposable masks but apparently to them the only time selfishness is bad is in the context of suicide. "tHiNk AbOuT oThErS" they say, when obviously you are suffering an unbearable amount of pain.