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RN13
Pharma kills
- Jun 3, 2024
- 33
I'm damaged by an SSRI medication. 4 years ago. Since that time i'm tortured an disabled. My body burns like i'm poured over with gasoline severe muscle pain. Severe nerve pain, akathisia, neuropathy, agitation. I barely can ever watch even TV. Maybe once a week mostly for an hour. I can't barely walk or care for myself. I don't do anything except suffer, laying here cope and reach the evening by the grace of God. While i beg in pain. I'm even worse then day one of this hell 1200 days ago.
Still i am not able to overcome SI and hang myself while i have everything prepared. How the hell is this even possible. It's crazy.
I have zero life and no future. (Loving family tho, but it's a burden too since i have so much pain and sickness that i'm always suicidal - thanks to my doctor) i had a great life before and a great social network, i guess that's the reason but it makes no sense. Since it's all gone.
It's SSRI induced brain damage, it's completely impossible to feel this much pain when it's a physical problem. Like your pain filter is gone and the pain volume button is full open in your nervous system.
I don't want to traumatize my family and my GF that gives informal care. But i traumatize myself every single second and her too with my suicidal talk, since she's trying to keep me alive every hour of the day for years. My GF says she can't live without me (and i know it's true). She's already traumatized for seeing me in this state so long let alone when i even hang myself.
but i don't live. Not even a bit. Even listening to a radio is not possible because of 15/10 pain allover. Just 1000+ days of wallstaring in the worst pain imagineable.
Please I don't need pity. I've had enough of that and i don't like to be confronted with my situation i know what a hell of a joke it is. just explanation and help.
Pls help. And/or explain
Tnx
Still i am not able to overcome SI and hang myself while i have everything prepared. How the hell is this even possible. It's crazy.
I have zero life and no future. (Loving family tho, but it's a burden too since i have so much pain and sickness that i'm always suicidal - thanks to my doctor) i had a great life before and a great social network, i guess that's the reason but it makes no sense. Since it's all gone.
It's SSRI induced brain damage, it's completely impossible to feel this much pain when it's a physical problem. Like your pain filter is gone and the pain volume button is full open in your nervous system.
I don't want to traumatize my family and my GF that gives informal care. But i traumatize myself every single second and her too with my suicidal talk, since she's trying to keep me alive every hour of the day for years. My GF says she can't live without me (and i know it's true). She's already traumatized for seeing me in this state so long let alone when i even hang myself.
but i don't live. Not even a bit. Even listening to a radio is not possible because of 15/10 pain allover. Just 1000+ days of wallstaring in the worst pain imagineable.
Please I don't need pity. I've had enough of that and i don't like to be confronted with my situation i know what a hell of a joke it is. just explanation and help.
Pls help. And/or explain
Tnx
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