SNastablesalt
she longs for freedom
- Oct 6, 2023
- 94
I literally have no idea what to do. I can't afford a trip to somewhere to find N, nor can I afford to buy SN (I am currently broke.) I want to ctb via train, but it's so condemned on this site and I'd just feel so cruel if I traumatised the driver, but it seems like the perfect method for me. I don't want to ever hang myself, my si is too strong for full suspension and I cannot do partial, I've tried so many times. It's also too high for jumping. I have ami, but not enough to make a cocktail with it, and after 3 failed ods, I'd not like to try again. I would blow my brains out, but I live in England. I've even tried SWB but I cannot get that to work either. I saw a thread earlier talking about tiktoks saying "only 3 tablespoons of table salt can kill you" and I'm considering taking antiemetics and loads of sedatives so I'll pass out, then eating the salt, but it does not sound painless at all. I need help and I need it now. I cannot with this life any longer.
Edit: added the part about jumping
Edit: added the part about jumping