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SNastablesalt

she longs for freedom
Oct 6, 2023
94
I literally have no idea what to do. I can't afford a trip to somewhere to find N, nor can I afford to buy SN (I am currently broke.) I want to ctb via train, but it's so condemned on this site and I'd just feel so cruel if I traumatised the driver, but it seems like the perfect method for me. I don't want to ever hang myself, my si is too strong for full suspension and I cannot do partial, I've tried so many times. It's also too high for jumping. I have ami, but not enough to make a cocktail with it, and after 3 failed ods, I'd not like to try again. I would blow my brains out, but I live in England. I've even tried SWB but I cannot get that to work either. I saw a thread earlier talking about tiktoks saying "only 3 tablespoons of table salt can kill you" and I'm considering taking antiemetics and loads of sedatives so I'll pass out, then eating the salt, but it does not sound painless at all. I need help and I need it now. I cannot with this life any longer.

Edit: added the part about jumping
 
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UtopianElephant

Student
Nov 26, 2022
128
Train jumping is far from perfect, there are a lot of variables and uncertainties that are practically impossible to account for, it's a pretty risky method.

There are better methods, please don't rush or endanger yourself unnecessarily. It takes time.
 
spectraltease

spectraltease

When everything is lost everything is found
Sep 23, 2022
277
Train jumping is far from perfect, there are a lot of variables and uncertainties that are practically impossible to account for, it's a pretty risky method.

There are better methods, please don't rush or endanger yourself unnecessarily. It takes time.
Real but if jumping or train is good planed its overkill and more safe than hanging or Night-Night. Here is a guy who did Night-Night and than was 1 year in a coma.
 
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acey

Above an abyss - funeral worker
Sep 14, 2023
94
Real but if jumping or train is good planed its overkill and more safe than hanging or Night-Night. Here is a guy who did Night-Night and than was 1 year in a coma.
Did you forget the link?
 
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UtopianElephant

Student
Nov 26, 2022
128
Real but if jumping or train is good planed its overkill and more safe than hanging or Night-Night. Here is a guy who did Night-Night and than was 1 year in a coma.
It's not a safe method, from the various sources I read about people using this method, about 1/3 end up maimed instead of killed. It takes both luck and precision to execute a jump like that with no risk of survival.

I'm not sure about laying on tracks, that's a different method and presents other risks, including old "cowcatcher" front ends on trains, and SI kicking in at the last moments, which would bring its own risks and dangers.
 
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mrtime87

Experienced
Jul 9, 2024
208
I took have tried a partial many times. I feel like it takes drugs or alcohol to get to that point where the person dying refuses to stand up.