Help me i need to figure this whole ctb thing quickly!!!

[happy endings]

Hey SS family.... so I'll make this short and sweet and to the point! My life is just pure miserable and has been for the last few years. I won't go into too much detail other than I'm super addicted to fentany, like i need 2-3 grams a day, and im about to be homeless in about 5 days. I've been preparing my mind and my body for this for too long now and I can honestly say I am more than ready to ctb. I was never an IV drug user. I thought the other day if I tried that and put a whole half G in the rig I'd be sure to OD. Smh nope woke up in pain as I must have just dropped like a sack of bricks onto my kitchen floor. So last night I even doubled that amount. Still same result as I'm here still writing about it. So my next option which is cheap, we'll I already have good climbing ropes that I used when I used to climb towers, but im not too familiar with the hanging techniques and I just don't want to suffer a painful exit. I have really thought this through, already wrote the letter and even make a video so people would understand how sick and suffering i am. Can anyone help me? 5 days will be here in no time. Tbh I would rather get this done and over with tonight if possible. Any help is greatly appreciated. If anyone is around the Charlotte NC area and would like to lend a helping hand you could remain anonymous. Even if someone just let me borrow a

Edit: I've even thought of injecting IV antifreeze. But I read it can take way too long to die from. 1-2 days of possible suffering. I want to go out quick! Idc how much pain and suffering as long as it's over super fast! I clearly can't OD because my tolerance is way to high! I've been begging God to just let me OD but of course like everything else in my life he doesn't pull through!

Thanks for taking the time to read this and I look forward to all your replies! tick, Tock!!

 

[soonatpeace777888]

Trying to CTB in a manic state like this can lead to long term damage. You have even considered anti-freeze which is an absurdly horrendous way to die. You need to calm down before you can make any serious decisions. This site a chat 24/7 if you need someone to talk to in order to keep your mind occupied.

 

[happy endings]

My man as far as i can see everyone here has an exit plan and it's even made the news for people using it for ways to "ctb" (we'll just call it that). The dude that was selling regulators no longer in business because of this site probably. This site could be used to chat 24/7 but when someone has made up their mind with something such as this there's no point in trying to talk them out of it. I'm not in a manic state. I'm just to the point of no return at this moment and I've been here for the last few months. I came on here for some simple advice on easy ways to get it done that don't cost hundreds of $$ or whatever. Hanging would be a great way if I knew I could do it without suffering. I read how Robin Williams did it and I kind of tried that but idk how he was able to accomplish that. I have friends who I have grown up with in the past and since middle school which is way over 20 years ago a classmate hung himself, as a young adult another one blew his head off with a shotgun, I have countless friends that have overdosed. I just don't understand why i can't accomplish the feat of overdosing myself!!! That's really how I'd love to go out. I know its just painless, and clearly easiest for me since I know where to get everything. I get really good fentanyl also. I'm telling you. I've seen this shit drop amateurs in small amounts!! Anyways, as i said I'm looking for advice to get what I need done... not a lecture bro.

 

[Hollowman]

If I had fent I'd combine it with hanging.

 

[happy endings]

If I had fent I'd combine it with hanging.

Yeah i thought of that. My issue is the height of suspension or dropping point. I live in an apartment. As I said. Idk if you read about Robin Williams and how he used the door with a nylon belt and I am assuming his weight for the leverage.

 

[Hollowman]

Yeah i thought of that. My issue is the height of suspension or dropping point. I live in an apartment. As I said. Idk if you read about Robin Williams and how he used the door with a nylon belt and I am assuming his weight for the leverage.

Yeah I heard, people have used doors for fsh too. It wouldn't work if you're really tall though.

 

[LivingDeadTGirl]

The car decapitation/hanging thing seems pretty gnarly. Blast Freebird, hit the gas at the guitar breakout. Lord help me, I can't chaeeeyayeeyayeeyayeeyayeeyayeeyayeeyange *VROOOM* won't you flyyyy freeee birrrrd yeah

 

[happy endings]

Yeah i thought of that. My issue is the height of suspension or dropping point. I live in an apartment. As I said. Idk if you read about Robin Williams and how he used the door with a nylon belt

Yeah I heard, people have used doors for fsh too. It wouldn't work if you're really tall though.

LoL yeah im not tall at all. Like 5'6 at best. As far as the fent bro, I've tried taking enough the pther night that would probably kill an elephant. I know for a fact that it's mixed with all types of shit including xylazine, morphine, etc... the street fent is crazy. They put anything in it. I had some shit that made me teet positive for methamphetamine smh. They put benzos in this shit too. So the fact that I've never ever even been an iv user and I put atleast a full gram into a single shot.... yes it floored me. I must have collapsed because I woke up on the floor in a great deal of pain with no memory of much other than getting the shot ready. I normally would do a gram or two the whole day at most. I took a daily amount at once and still woke up. Normally I dont even nod out from the shit anymore. I mean if I smoke enough of it I will but like i said I've never used needles and shot anything iv before. So I thought for sure i would have od'd and nobody would find me for atleast several days at the least. I've never od'd in the almost 15 years of doing opiates. From pills, to heroin, to fent, and now everything has xylazine in it. So why does someone die every 5 min in the u.s. from fent od and I can't even od when trying my absolute hardest. I was thinking of trying carbon monoxide poisoning mixed with a nice heavy fent shot that would knock me out for a couple hours. Only problem is I don't have a garage, cars really don't emit enough these days anyway and I don't have a portable generator or anything like that. The only thing I do have is a gas powered leaf blower and I've asked online as well as AI if it would produce enough carbon monoxide to prove to be fatal if ran inside a car. I've been hearing yes so I think i might give that a try. Idk. I'm sure you've all heard the Story about the girl who texted her bf and encouraged him to stay in his truck with the generator running to ctb. She got into a great deal of trouble for that and I think even went to jail or had a suspended sentence at best. I think her name was Michelle Carter. So if that generator worked I presume if I am able to run the gas powered blower long enough it could work m.. thoughts anyone?

 

[RAJ GHRANDHICK]

Hey SS family.... so I'll make this short and sweet and to the point! My life is just pure miserable and has been for the last few years. I won't go into too much detail other than I'm super addicted to fentany, like i need 2-3 grams a day, and im about to be homeless in about 5 days. I've been preparing my mind and my body for this for too long now and I can honestly say I am more than ready to ctb. I was never an IV drug user. I thought the other day if I tried that and put a whole half G in the rig I'd be sure to OD. Smh nope woke up in pain as I must have just dropped like a sack of bricks onto my kitchen floor. So last night I even doubled that amount. Still same result as I'm here still writing about it. So my next option which is cheap, we'll I already have good climbing ropes that I used when I used to climb towers, but im not too familiar with the hanging techniques and I just don't want to suffer a painful exit. I have really thought this through, already wrote the letter and even make a video so people would understand how sick and suffering i am. Can anyone help me? 5 days will be here in no time. Tbh I would rather get this done and over with tonight if possible. Any help is greatly appreciated. If anyone is around the Charlotte NC area and would like to lend a helping hand you could remain anonymous. Even if someone just let me borrow a

Edit: I've even thought of injecting IV antifreeze. But I read it can take way too long to die from. 1-2 days of possible suffering. I want to go out quick! Idc how much pain and suffering as long as it's over super fast! I clearly can't OD because my tolerance is way to high! I've been begging God to just let me OD but of course like everything else in my life he doesn't pull through!

Thanks for taking the time to read this and I look forward to all your replies! tick, Tock!!

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[soonatpeace777888]

My man as far as i can see everyone here has an exit plan and it's even made the news for people using it for ways to "ctb" (we'll just call it that). The dude that was selling regulators no longer in business because of this site probably. This site could be used to chat 24/7 but when someone has made up their mind with something such as this there's no point in trying to talk them out of it. I'm not in a manic state. I'm just to the point of no return at this moment and I've been here for the last few months. I came on here for some simple advice on easy ways to get it done that don't cost hundreds of $$ or whatever. Hanging would be a great way if I knew I could do it without suffering. I read how Robin Williams did it and I kind of tried that but idk how he was able to accomplish that. I have friends who I have grown up with in the past and since middle school which is way over 20 years ago a classmate hung himself, as a young adult another one blew his head off with a shotgun, I have countless friends that have overdosed. I just don't understand why i can't accomplish the feat of overdosing myself!!! That's really how I'd love to go out. I know its just painless, and clearly easiest for me since I know where to get everything. I get really good fentanyl also. I'm telling you. I've seen this shit drop amateurs in small amounts!! Anyways, as i said I'm looking for advice to get what I need done... not a lecture bro.

That's fine but if you start talking about things like drinking anti-freeze I'm obligated to say something.

 

[Hvergelmir]

I think this is what you're asking for:
Noose
Table of drops

If your reason is mainly drug related, I really think you should look into getting help with that, though. There are plenty of people whom managed to knock it, and get their lives back on track.

 

[itbelikethat]

Hey SS family.... so I'll make this short and sweet and to the point! My life is just pure miserable and has been for the last few years. I won't go into too much detail other than I'm super addicted to fentany, like i need 2-3 grams a day, and im about to be homeless in about 5 days. I've been preparing my mind and my body for this for too long now and I can honestly say I am more than ready to ctb. I was never an IV drug user. I thought the other day if I tried that and put a whole half G in the rig I'd be sure to OD. Smh nope woke up in pain as I must have just dropped like a sack of bricks onto my kitchen floor. So last night I even doubled that amount. Still same result as I'm here still writing about it. So my next option which is cheap, we'll I already have good climbing ropes that I used when I used to climb towers, but im not too familiar with the hanging techniques and I just don't want to suffer a painful exit. I have really thought this through, already wrote the letter and even make a video so people would understand how sick and suffering i am. Can anyone help me? 5 days will be here in no time. Tbh I would rather get this done and over with tonight if possible. Any help is greatly appreciated. If anyone is around the Charlotte NC area and would like to lend a helping hand you could remain anonymous. Even if someone just let me borrow a

Edit: I've even thought of injecting IV antifreeze. But I read it can take way too long to die from. 1-2 days of possible suffering. I want to go out quick! Idc how much pain and suffering as long as it's over super fast! I clearly can't OD because my tolerance is way to high! I've been begging God to just let me OD but of course like everything else in my life he doesn't pull through!

Thanks for taking the time to read this and I look forward to all your replies! tick, Tock!!

You should consider getting help, your clearly not in a clear state of mind. Maybe some time in a psych ward will help you kick the habit.

I know of a few people who have been addicted to amphetamines they're whole lives and are thriving after taking the steps to recover. Try to kick the habit before you kick the bucket friend.

 

[NitrogenAfternoon]

If I had fent I'd combine it with hanging.

I would just do it with SN tbh, or just fent by itself. I really wish I could get it, it would be so peaceful.

 

[LunarEc]

You should consider getting help, your clearly not in a clear state of mind. Maybe some time in a psych ward will help you kick the habit.

I know of a few people who have been addicted to amphetamines they're whole lives and are thriving after taking the steps to recover. Try to kick the habit before you kick the bucket friend.

I agree, a psych ward might be able to help with the addiction. It might also suck though, in my experience it made me 10x more suicidal.

 

[notreallybored]

ב''ה, this is a weird angle but I'm feeling like, better odds if sober. Maybe with enough Torah knowledge under the belt? I don't know.

I hate to say that I have had experiences, but I have, and this is some weird shit to say but you may just get a buffet of suck or you may get 'tempted' with the whole, oh there's gonna be stuff to live for, wasn't your time yet, blah blah blah. I don't know, I've actually had both, but as much as the more cheerful stuff was more proximate to the illusions from substances, maybe it's worth going in absolutely ready to say fuck all this. I certainly felt that way at the time and just ended up doing stupid shit the following days waiting for whatever I did to take me out.. and all that and the sense of regret sure was a sham, if I'm even around to bless anyone it's just making it slow and painful for me.

So this is all woo, but if you can keep your intention through it, y'know, get to the end or non-existence.. taking the bait on "ah fuck, seriously, there's more to be done?" has been pointless and addled and wildly miserable. I have the heritage to sorta be more doomed to that but, as it's such hot story of Job garbage at best, if you actually can keep it together to make your demands in "NDE" territory rather than waking back up like some frickin' Power Rangers movie I wish you the best.

If you absolutely have to kick the street habit and can afford it, sweating it out until a dozen plain kratom capsules feel like something is more sustainable than a fent habit, but still just blessing a bunch of Islamic gangsters, and like $40 a week in the places where it's cheap. Just trying to reduce your misery any. The entire world will offer tweak but IMHO the withdrawal is worse as well as the brain damage anhedonia that its fans think is tolerance - well, if you can't produce dopamine anymore, yeah, congrats, you're on risperidone all the time and ready to die as equipment in a factory anyway.

Edit to add:

I'm always with the staircase wit. I can't impress enough how much I hate the whole universe at this point, and the California system is just to be diagnosed with a "substance abuse disorder" and then do whatever drugs you want whenever you want because it's a disease (but the cops are still cops). So, there's so much crazy mythmaking about the Sacklers creating the opioid mess, yet what was anyone supposed to do, life is painful and it's hard to say when a -caine or opiate is more recommended if, say, surgery was involved. So, sacred and profane, https://beittshuvah.org exists and probably is a lot of fun with a high paying entertainment job at the end of it, I'm not sold, send the politicians who made it into office there first, but also feeling obligated to mention the option. As still amounts to G-d wanted you to have this roller coaster for.. networking opportunities! Also not sure about that one but a significant enough number of California rehabs aren't exactly drug free because free housing and place of business for everyone to chuckle about. But I guess G-d wants you to know that's an option, and fent is a bit harder than kratom or what comes around for living near their alumni perhaps.