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watereyes

watereyes

les malheurs de lizzie
Mar 27, 2020
738
Hi,

I have in the past few months been dealing with episodes of extreme sadness and crying due to the death of my dear Lillie (@ScaredGirl). It has become increasingly difficult and I'm not on the path of acceptance, and I need help. These 'episodes' start when I think of the last sentence she told me 'always smile the world lights up when you do'. I burst into tears when I see this sentence. Lillie was beautiful, adorable, kind, and listened to me in my darkest moments. I miss her deeply. I can't express how horrible it feels. Lillie was the only person I truly loved, with all my heart. And trust me I'm not the type of person who loves people.

I can't live knowing that Lillie is dead. She was the only light in my life. I cant believe she's gone. The pain is sometimes ok, but sometimes it gets unbearable.

Lillie. I love you so much. My heart is shattered.
 
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Lady black

Lady black

35 male, central Europe, German speaking
Oct 22, 2018
1,192
I feel with you. I often have to think about Susanna, looks like she also succeeded with her death. Miss her so much
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,908
Of course those who are gone are at peace and they are free from suffering, but I understand it is painful to lose those that we are close to. At least you had such a good friend. I wish you the best.
 
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8evergo

8evergo

Mage
Oct 20, 2021
557
sad your story and i can understand you, i keep telling myself we live in hell where it is now it is much better we have been in war since we were born
 
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