so this thread is kinda a help and a story thread
So i tried ctb like 11 times now and i could not do it like it did not work because i did something wrong.
so my method is partial hanging because i dont have a high enough place to step on a chair and kick it away.
also it looks kinda brutal to me and if i do it wrong i have to wait 3 minutes in total suffering so i'll use partial suspension.
i did this method like 11 times now and i could not kill myself with it. i couldn't pass out ,
my problem with it is that i can't get myself to pass out like i Lean forwards and wait but my head is feeling like it could explode any second.
i saw it in a youtube video where someone demonstrated some kind of challange or something and it did work( yt video: )
3 out of 11 trys i almost did it but it wasnt working for some reason because i woke up and my vision was very blury and i only remember to remove the rope as quickly as possible
and this was it. am i too stupid to do it or? like i really need help i've been suicidal for like 5 years now and i cant even do it. if i could i would just grap a shotgun or something and send myself underground but it's really difficult to get a weapon here so i can't do that. like my only option is hanging and i neep help.
So i tried ctb like 11 times now and i could not do it like it did not work because i did something wrong.
so my method is partial hanging because i dont have a high enough place to step on a chair and kick it away.
also it looks kinda brutal to me and if i do it wrong i have to wait 3 minutes in total suffering so i'll use partial suspension.
i did this method like 11 times now and i could not kill myself with it. i couldn't pass out ,
my problem with it is that i can't get myself to pass out like i Lean forwards and wait but my head is feeling like it could explode any second.
i saw it in a youtube video where someone demonstrated some kind of challange or something and it did work( yt video: )
3 out of 11 trys i almost did it but it wasnt working for some reason because i woke up and my vision was very blury and i only remember to remove the rope as quickly as possible
and this was it. am i too stupid to do it or? like i really need help i've been suicidal for like 5 years now and i cant even do it. if i could i would just grap a shotgun or something and send myself underground but it's really difficult to get a weapon here so i can't do that. like my only option is hanging and i neep help.
