help/advice

[devil]

okay I need to explain my situation and I kinda need some advice.

my therapist is threatening inpatient because she knows that i'm currently suicidal.
i have gone to inpatient 5 times now and it will never help.... EVER.
it's always everyone's answer, to just throw me away to inpatient because they can't handle me or my situation.
i can't and won't go back to inpatient, so i'm seriously thinking about running away.
i want to pack my stuff and disappear and get a hotel in a different state, but i'll be alone and i'm kinda nervous to run.
i don't know what to do, i really can't be taken back to the hospital. guys it's awful there, what do i do i'm stressed.
i don't have a plan to ctb yet because i haven't had time to think it over and make sure it's 100% foolproof.
so i'm kinda just stuck at the moment

 

[Backwood_tilt]

What country, what state are you in? The laws are going to vary from region to region.

If you are so stressed that your therapist can tell you are suicidal, you probably should not be making any immediate plans to CTB. that is something that takes time and preparation if you are looking for a peaceful death.

Sorry that you are going through this.