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lostless
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- Aug 22, 2021
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Hello peoples. I am a guy (24) from India. I had some mental issues from since when I was 17. It started as OCD. I now have ocd, depressions and I think maybe adhd. I have no aspirations or goals in life. The way the society works is just not feasible for me. I don't wanna get into relationships or have kids.
It was all still going on until my mom dies few months ago. She was the only one who maybe understood me and loved me for who I am. I have been suicidal since then. Not only do I miss her, I also feel immense guilt as I couldn't do much for her or save her when she would do everything for me.
I just dont wanna continue anymore. My dad I think cares for me and would not understand my mental problems. I am just stuck between thinking whether to ctb or..
Even if I live m only gonna bring more disappointment as I will continue being depressed, not marry or get kids, or even do proper working jobs.
And finally even if I do want to ctb, I donno which way to choose. No guns or anything like that here that I know of. Even when I want to end it I don't wanna pussy out or feel pain. Talk any. Thanks for time.
It was all still going on until my mom dies few months ago. She was the only one who maybe understood me and loved me for who I am. I have been suicidal since then. Not only do I miss her, I also feel immense guilt as I couldn't do much for her or save her when she would do everything for me.
I just dont wanna continue anymore. My dad I think cares for me and would not understand my mental problems. I am just stuck between thinking whether to ctb or..
Even if I live m only gonna bring more disappointment as I will continue being depressed, not marry or get kids, or even do proper working jobs.
And finally even if I do want to ctb, I donno which way to choose. No guns or anything like that here that I know of. Even when I want to end it I don't wanna pussy out or feel pain. Talk any. Thanks for time.