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barnsley6955
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- Aug 29, 2024
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Hello everyone I'm new to the site but not knew to the scene. I've been in this state of mind for between 8 and 10 years now where I've attempted suicide well to be honest I lost count but it's around ten times I believe.
A couple of times I tried with pain medication but taking as many as I could but I just threw up once I started to get past the ten mark and it wasn't the best feeling in the world, obviously that failed. The rest was all one thing which was hanging. I've been to different places , I've tried smoking cannabis to calm me down aswell as I used to sit on the tree with a rope around my neck and if I did jump it's like I would panic and lift myself up to grab the rope.
I want more than anything to do this, this is my one goal. I want an simple way to do this like medication where once it's done I can't stop it or stop myself, please
A couple of times I tried with pain medication but taking as many as I could but I just threw up once I started to get past the ten mark and it wasn't the best feeling in the world, obviously that failed. The rest was all one thing which was hanging. I've been to different places , I've tried smoking cannabis to calm me down aswell as I used to sit on the tree with a rope around my neck and if I did jump it's like I would panic and lift myself up to grab the rope.
I want more than anything to do this, this is my one goal. I want an simple way to do this like medication where once it's done I can't stop it or stop myself, please