ottergrl
New Member
- Dec 15, 2025
- 1
Hi all!
I'm a new user to this site and joined on a whim after spending a couple hours scrolling through what I could see. I figured this would be the best place for me to find my best step forward and whether or not anyone reads this or even care enough to reply, maybe it'll ease me.
I'm finding myself at the point of no return. The last few months of 2025 became one giant blur of nothing but the emptiness and despair that rattle around in my brain. It seems that just trying to live through a single day is painful and I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I'm tired of my school, my job, people, my family, and most of all myself. I've continuously disappointed myself and I can't find the ground underneath me to pick myself back up. My future appears bleak and uncertain. Depression has riddled me since I was 10 but something feels different this time. It's as if all the light has been snuffed out of me and my life feels like another wasted breath of air to the world. I'm not even sure it could get better from here.
I know that if I were to take that official plunge I would be leaving behind friends and my family devastated. Is there a point where my pain outweighs their potential? It's getting harder and harder to search for reasons to continue on and I'm not sure there's anything out there for me.
What do I even do with myself.
I'm a new user to this site and joined on a whim after spending a couple hours scrolling through what I could see. I figured this would be the best place for me to find my best step forward and whether or not anyone reads this or even care enough to reply, maybe it'll ease me.
I'm finding myself at the point of no return. The last few months of 2025 became one giant blur of nothing but the emptiness and despair that rattle around in my brain. It seems that just trying to live through a single day is painful and I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I'm tired of my school, my job, people, my family, and most of all myself. I've continuously disappointed myself and I can't find the ground underneath me to pick myself back up. My future appears bleak and uncertain. Depression has riddled me since I was 10 but something feels different this time. It's as if all the light has been snuffed out of me and my life feels like another wasted breath of air to the world. I'm not even sure it could get better from here.
I know that if I were to take that official plunge I would be leaving behind friends and my family devastated. Is there a point where my pain outweighs their potential? It's getting harder and harder to search for reasons to continue on and I'm not sure there's anything out there for me.
What do I even do with myself.
