Hello I’m newbie

[AlmostFinished]

Hello everyone,

I am a 30 years old man from Spain.
I have been reading in the dark for some time and I know in depth the most common methods, I am not an expert, I think there are no experts in this.

I will not tell much of my story. My life revolves around a physical complex, visible and not improvable.
I consider that I am defective material and I have absolutely no interest in moving forward. I am a good loser, I have assumed that I have lost and now I want to finish the game. I have no problem with people. I am not afraid or furious, I will leave with a lot of peace.

These are my methods:
1. Partial/Full suspension.
I have tried the complete suspension several times, with a tie and with a belt attached to the knob of a door. I've only got neck pain and great head pressure.
I have tried the total suspension twice. Last time a few hours ago. The first time with a climbing rope I bought from Amazon, it went wrong because it slipped and fell to the ground. A few hours ago I tried a belt caught in the frame of a door. My head felt like it was going to explode, especially near the mouth.Seeing that I could not even lose consciousness, I put my feet on the sofa and can open the door and release the rope.
This method is my favorite. I am not afraid of pain and there is no possibility of being discovered because I live alone. I know that my fault is that I apply little pressure and I can't block the carotid. The fact is that I have a thin neck because I am thin.

2. SN
I have found a laboratory in Barcelona that supplies it to 98%. On their website they do not indicate that they sell it only to professionals but I fear it will be so. I have a hard time giving an excuse for another use ...

3. Jumping
I have seen a fairly tall bridge that could serve me. I do not like the idea of destroying my body very much because whoever had to recover what is left of me, even so, I value it as a possible way out.

4. Cutting
I know that cutting the wrists is not very effective but not a large artery. I have located the pulse in the femorar next to the groin and think about cutting with a razor blade.

I want to take this first message to send you a big hug, I put myself in your place and I want you to know that you have someone who knows your suffering and supports you from a distance.
I hope to be here for a very short time, if I can leave in the next 5 minutes better than in two days.
Sorry for my English, it's not my first language.
Hugs.

 

[woxihuanni]

Even if the supplier in your country wouldn't ship to you, there are sources in Europe that would. I just don't want you to do anything that could leave you with damage.

I'm sending you a big hug

 

[AlmostFinished]

Even if the supplier in your country wouldn't ship to you, there are sources in Europe that would. I just don't want you to do anything that could leave you with damage.

I'm sending you a big hug

According to the supplier, they are governed by European laws for the sale of such products. My fear is to receive these products from outside Spain and someone check them out. The product of that supplier seems good, maybe I could take a risk, it seems that it would serve:

****
Analytical Grade
≥ 98%
2,15
69.00
7632-00-0
231-555-9
NaNO2
1500
28341000
P210-P283-P370+P378-P371+P380+P375-P301+P310-P501
5.1(6.1) OT2 III UN 1500

 

[woxihuanni]

Can you edit out the name of the company to be on the safe side? Sourcing is not allowed (though I know you did not link it as such).

I have not heard of anybody's SN being held at customs, received mine across the border safely. Purity looks good, though you can double-check on the mega thread.

If your country is really crazy with customs and anything happens, you can have an excuse at the ready, believe photography has a use for it. Again, please double check.

 

[Itsalmosttime]

Have you seen the Night Night method mega thread?

That is a carotid compression technique as well.

 

[AlmostFinished]

Can you edit out the name of the company to be on the safe side? Sourcing is not allowed (though I know you did not link it as such).

I have not heard of anybody's SN being held at customs, received mine across the border safely. Purity looks good, though you can double-check on the mega thread.

If your country is really crazy with customs and anything happens, you can have an excuse at the ready, believe photography has a use for it. Again, please double check.

I edited the name part, it was the brand of the product. Thanks and sorry. I have also looked at SN on ebay from European suppliers, between European countries there are no customs. My problem is that someone reviews the products because they are chemical, I would have no explanation about their purpose.

 

[Blackjack]

Do not attempt hanging. You will likely fail. SN is the best option.

 

[AlmostFinished]

Have you seen the Night Night method mega thread?

That is a carotid compression technique as well.

Yes I saw it. My problem is the same as with the suspension, I get blood to accumulate in the head and I never get dizzy. I feel like a vein in my head is going to burst but I don't get close to the feeling that I will die. I do not want many marks on my neck if I fail, my family and my work have already noticed my change in behavior and soon they will begin to tie up ends if I appear with marks on the neck. Right now I have them. Thank you for your message.

 

[woxihuanni]

I edited the name part, it was the brand of the product. Thanks and sorry. I have also looked at SN on ebay from European suppliers, between European countries there are no customs. My problem is that someone reviews the products because they are chemical, I would have no explanation about their purpose.

Thank you, no apologies needed, just we are all doing our best for safety. :)

Aha, then not likely to be problems. In the worst case scenerio, as I said I'd check the uses and pick one for an excuse. As of now, it's not a very alarm-raising subtstance (though I'm worried it may become so in the future).

 

[AlmostFinished]

Do not attempt hanging. You will likely fail. SN is the best option.

If I were able to buy it, I would have to wait a couple of weeks for the shipment and the antiemetic regime. People get out with the suspension, because you are against that method? My idea is to disappear now, if it is now better than tomorrow. Thank you for your message.

 

[Eurus]

I like the suspension idea as well,as far as I know,you would want the knot on the side of your neck,I wish you the best and that you find peace

 

[woxihuanni]

If I were able to buy it, I would have to wait a couple of weeks for the shipment and the antiemetic regime. People get out with the suspension, because you are against that method? My idea is to disappear now, if it is now better than tomorrow. Thank you for your message.

I know the feeling, waiting is very difficult. I don't know, you've tried and could not apply enough pressure before apparently. Just carefully evaluate so that you don't end up with damage. Better safe than sorry is the rule of thumb.

Here also wishing I'd be out right now, but a few things to do yet in these days. It fucking sucks.

 

[AlmostFinished]

I like the suspension idea as well,as far as I know,you would want the knot on the side of your neck,I wish you the best and that you find peace

I tried to move my head from side to side to get pressure, before falling. I can not feel dizzy, just the damn pressure on the head, also when I do with the belt I have no knot. Thank you for your message.

I know the feeling, waiting is very difficult. I don't know, you've tried and could not apply enough pressure before apparently. Just carefully evaluate so that you don't end up with damage. Better safe than sorry is the rule of thumb.

Here also wishing I'd be out right now, but a few things to do yet in these days. It fucking sucks.

I can wait a few days, although the only thing that keeps me running is knowing that I can finish it. When I fail I feel very bad. My business / economic issues are well tied. Personally it is impossible to say goodbye or do something.

 

[woxihuanni]

I can wait a few days, although the only thing that keeps me running is knowing that I can finish it. When I fail I feel very bad. My business / economic issues are well tied. Personally it is impossible to say goodbye or do something.

Oh yes, whenever life deals another insult yet, I go 'Haha, fuckers, already have my SN, will soon spoil this game by quitting anyway.'

 

[AlmostFinished]

With the complete suspension, with great pressure on the head. Would he die after all? I know that the carotid is not sufficiently blocked but I am totally hung up !! I'm thinking of trying again now, I don't care about the pain if I get the goal but I don't want brain damage.

I'm not asking to know how to do it, it's my decision completely. Simply your opinion.

 

[MidLifeCrisis]

I have located the pulse in the femorar next to the groin and think about cutting with a razor blade.

This would be a horrible and traumatic way to die, there are more peaceful methods available.

Thinking about it makes me feel ill, I remember the surgery I had to strip out a varicose vein from the groin down to the knee.

 

[Stan]

Try ebay for SN, will ship to anywhere in Europe without problems or questions.

 

[AlmostFinished]

This would be a horrible and traumatic way to die, there are more peaceful methods available.

Thinking about it makes me feel ill, I remember the surgery I had to strip out a varicose vein from the groin down to the knee.

If I could know that I'm going to bleed to death or that I'm going to make a cut so deep that I didn't need a second cut, I would do it now. Thank you for your message.

Try ebay for SN, will ship to anywhere in Europe without problems or questions.

I have located a supplier from Poland on Ebay. Seems legit. I would like to leave earlier, if I do not get it with the suspension I will try this method. I have read about this and I know what I have to do. Thank you for your message.

 

[AlmostFinished]

SN bought. Now to wait 4-7 days. Thank you all for your answers and my apologies for the despair I have shown.