I've been reading the forum for about a week now. I found you guys when doing a google search on good suicide methods. It was incredible how logical and straightforward the information I found here was. You guys saved me from derping into a potentially torturous ending. It was also amazing to see just how kind and supportive and caring you all are. It makes it all the more sad we have been brought to this place in life. I'm so grateful of the experiences you have all shared, and the research that has been gathered togethe.
I got to this place in life because two years ago my fiancé and best friend of 11 years and I had a dispure about if a German shepherd that we had at the time that bit my hand quite badly should be kept, or given to his family. In the end the dog was sent away, and he resented me for it. As an intuitive and emotional person I had trouble coping with his negative feelings toward me, and lost any interest in sexuality. I was also postpartum from having our third child which only complicated things. After two years of these issues I guess it all became too much for him, and he cut off the relationship.
I am visually impaired, and I have a neurological condition which has been labeled as complex migraine or us. The neurological episodes cause temporary global aphasia, disorientation, spacing out briefly, as well as acute memory issues. Because of these two factors I'm not able to keep a job with the ending of the relationship he took away the future of a six-figure income as well as potentially my children. I have been a homemaker for seven years and I'm in my late 30s, so my potential in the workforce and the world for that matter is limited. I am still here because of my three children but once they reach adulthood I am making the decision to not be a burden on my adult children or the world.
i've made every effort to fix the relationship, and apologized and offered to change any behaviors that were bothering him. I guess some people just don't want to give a second chance even when the motivations for transgression were pain and hormonal crash.
I have been so alone on this topic because people in this world cannot handle when people want to make the choice of life and death. Reading what are you guys right has been a breath of fresh air, as it normalizes my feelings. I feel less alone, and a lot of what I have read here has made it clear to me even how important it is that I wait until my children reach adulthood before I CTB. The exception there is if I lose custody of the children due to finances. If they are no longer in my care and I spend empty days and nights alone I will not be able to continue this world.
please forgive any weird typos or wording I am voice texting.
I got to this place in life because two years ago my fiancé and best friend of 11 years and I had a dispure about if a German shepherd that we had at the time that bit my hand quite badly should be kept, or given to his family. In the end the dog was sent away, and he resented me for it. As an intuitive and emotional person I had trouble coping with his negative feelings toward me, and lost any interest in sexuality. I was also postpartum from having our third child which only complicated things. After two years of these issues I guess it all became too much for him, and he cut off the relationship.
I am visually impaired, and I have a neurological condition which has been labeled as complex migraine or us. The neurological episodes cause temporary global aphasia, disorientation, spacing out briefly, as well as acute memory issues. Because of these two factors I'm not able to keep a job with the ending of the relationship he took away the future of a six-figure income as well as potentially my children. I have been a homemaker for seven years and I'm in my late 30s, so my potential in the workforce and the world for that matter is limited. I am still here because of my three children but once they reach adulthood I am making the decision to not be a burden on my adult children or the world.
i've made every effort to fix the relationship, and apologized and offered to change any behaviors that were bothering him. I guess some people just don't want to give a second chance even when the motivations for transgression were pain and hormonal crash.
I have been so alone on this topic because people in this world cannot handle when people want to make the choice of life and death. Reading what are you guys right has been a breath of fresh air, as it normalizes my feelings. I feel less alone, and a lot of what I have read here has made it clear to me even how important it is that I wait until my children reach adulthood before I CTB. The exception there is if I lose custody of the children due to finances. If they are no longer in my care and I spend empty days and nights alone I will not be able to continue this world.
please forgive any weird typos or wording I am voice texting.
glad you found us.
