I've purchased my grills, and my charcooal, and have lurked for almost a month. I've decided to do it tomorrow. I'll update if I fail.
I have 12lbs of charcoal, of which I will be using half.
At 8am I will burn the coal on my porch until it turns Grey. As it burns, I will use my waterproof tape to seal off the vents, drains, and anywhere else air might escape. I will then clean my apartment as much as possible as I wait, with the last step being to leave notes (that I have already written) on the table with a warning that I am in the restroom, do not enter, call the police and advise them of the dangerous CO on site. I also leave my will, and my goodbye letters.
When the charcoal is ready, I will move it into the bathroom. I've already tested, and the grills fit into my tub. The entire bathroom is about 8 by 4 feet.
At this point I will now use the tape to seal the door fully.
Because I don't have 2x the lethal amount of charcoal for CO production, I will be using a mixture of baking soda and vinegar to produce CO2. I will be mixing them in a bowl in the sink. I will be using 4 cups of each. Hopefully, the oxygen this removes from the air will allow additional CO from the charcoal.
I have a gallon of my favorite wine that I will be sipping on as I watch Les Miserablés. I will also be taking 60mg or ariprazole, 36mg of ondanestron, and 30mg of risperidone. These should help me to sleep, especially when paired with the wine. I will have with me a dab pen, so I can be high if I wish.
I have been suicidal for over a decade now, and simply wish for peace. If I fail, I will update after getting out of the hospital, simply to advise that it did not work, and then promptly drink at least one cup of Formic acid. The death will be extremely painful, and I cannot recommend it as a method to anybody else, but there is no cure. 1 cup is 100% lethal, and any over that number is overkill. It is guaranteed. Death should occur within 36 hours, and the hospital can only perform palliative care.
I originally intended to combine the formic acid with sulfiric acid, in order to produce CO but my package of sulfiric acid never arrived.
To all of you out there, I hope you gain the courage to achieve what you want from life. Whether that's to grow old, and die from natural causes, or to challenge your survival instincts and win.
I've lost two unborn babies within the last 365 days, and although I've never worshipped, I hope God is real. I hope God is forgiving. I hope I get to meet my babies, and the three of us can look down on their father, who has no clue of my fate, and who I love and believe in with all my soul. To the world of readers, please fight. Fight for a world in which the loved ones of the fallen are comforted, and happy, so that they might never chase after us.
I have 12lbs of charcoal, of which I will be using half.
At 8am I will burn the coal on my porch until it turns Grey. As it burns, I will use my waterproof tape to seal off the vents, drains, and anywhere else air might escape. I will then clean my apartment as much as possible as I wait, with the last step being to leave notes (that I have already written) on the table with a warning that I am in the restroom, do not enter, call the police and advise them of the dangerous CO on site. I also leave my will, and my goodbye letters.
When the charcoal is ready, I will move it into the bathroom. I've already tested, and the grills fit into my tub. The entire bathroom is about 8 by 4 feet.
At this point I will now use the tape to seal the door fully.
Because I don't have 2x the lethal amount of charcoal for CO production, I will be using a mixture of baking soda and vinegar to produce CO2. I will be mixing them in a bowl in the sink. I will be using 4 cups of each. Hopefully, the oxygen this removes from the air will allow additional CO from the charcoal.
I have a gallon of my favorite wine that I will be sipping on as I watch Les Miserablés. I will also be taking 60mg or ariprazole, 36mg of ondanestron, and 30mg of risperidone. These should help me to sleep, especially when paired with the wine. I will have with me a dab pen, so I can be high if I wish.
I have been suicidal for over a decade now, and simply wish for peace. If I fail, I will update after getting out of the hospital, simply to advise that it did not work, and then promptly drink at least one cup of Formic acid. The death will be extremely painful, and I cannot recommend it as a method to anybody else, but there is no cure. 1 cup is 100% lethal, and any over that number is overkill. It is guaranteed. Death should occur within 36 hours, and the hospital can only perform palliative care.
I originally intended to combine the formic acid with sulfiric acid, in order to produce CO but my package of sulfiric acid never arrived.
To all of you out there, I hope you gain the courage to achieve what you want from life. Whether that's to grow old, and die from natural causes, or to challenge your survival instincts and win.
I've lost two unborn babies within the last 365 days, and although I've never worshipped, I hope God is real. I hope God is forgiving. I hope I get to meet my babies, and the three of us can look down on their father, who has no clue of my fate, and who I love and believe in with all my soul. To the world of readers, please fight. Fight for a world in which the loved ones of the fallen are comforted, and happy, so that they might never chase after us.
