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[PoisonedJuliet]

Hello all,
I am new here just like many others and just wanted to say hello to the community. I have struggled for mental health issues all my life and knew it was time to find some people who understand. I found this forum looking for ways to hang myself. I don't know if I would like to ctb yet but it has been on my mind a lot recently and it is always nice to have options. Thank you all for reading this post and I am so thankful that I found a community I can talk to. Lots of love

PoisonedJuliet

 

[WhiteEyes]

Welcome

 

[one4all]

PoisonedJuliet
Welcome to where time stands still.

 

[Shinbu]

Welcome to our sanctuary. Nice to meet you

 

[BooGirl]

Hihi! It's always fun to see new people.

 

[Mr2005]

Hello

 

[ComingClose]

Hello all,
I am new here just like many others and just wanted to say hello to the community. I have struggled for mental health issues all my life and knew it was time to find some people who understand. I found this forum looking for ways to hang myself. I don't know if I would like to ctb yet but it has been on my mind a lot recently and it is always nice to have options. Thank you all for reading this post and I am so thankful that I found a community I can talk to. Lots of love

PoisonedJuliet

Hi there.

As you say 'I don't know if I would like to ctb yet', I think you need to be looking at ways that you might be able to make improvements in your life that, no matter how small, could make things more bearable for you. All though I'm pro-choice, I don't like to think that you might be here hoping someone might sway you towards ctb when you obviously aren't sure in your own mind that it's the only course you can take.
Whilst none of us are going to try to push our own thoughts of ctb on you, we will all offer you support and advice, a listening ear, sympathy/empathy and maybe even a few smiles and giggles along the way. Welcome to the community.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

Welcome, I'm sorry you've struggled with mental health issues your whole life. I hope talking with the people here helps you.

 

[MsMaudlin]

Welcome to the forum!

Read everything and ask lots of questions. Even if they seem a bit silly, I can guarantee someone will know the answer on here

❤

 

[Quarky00]

Welcome

It's sad and painful to be at that place . When there's no peace or hope .

You can share your issues here , safely , feel free

What have you been going through recently..

 

[Lostandfound7]

Welcome Love!
We're here for u

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

Welcome.

We are a talkative bunch and very good listeners. We're also curious as all get-out.

What kinds of issues bring you here?

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

Welcome.

We are a talkative bunch and very good listeners. We're also curious as all get-out.

What kinds of issues bring you here?

Well I recently had my first encounter with self harm and I get reminded every day of what I did to myself. I haven't been professionally diagnosed but I'm pretty sure I suffer from bipolar, somatic symptom disorder, and anxiety. I am in constant physical pain and I never have felt like anyone's number one. When I feel happy in the moment I am then met with a sense of guilt for feeling happy. I'm just so done with it all and I hope that finding this community will give me the hope and support to keep on going or a peaceful way to go out. I am so happy I found you guys

Welcome

It's sad and painful to be at that place . When there's no peace or hope .

You can share your issues here , safely , feel free

What have you been going through recently..

Self harm, social anxiety, anxiety in general, thoughts about ctb, constant physical pain and loads of depression. The worst though is the feeling of emptiness...

 

[voyager]

Hello, and welcome, PoisonedJuliet. You've definitely come to the right place here, people will listen and understand. Hope you find much comfort here.

 

[Quarky00]

I am in constant physical pain

That's horrible Does you entire body ache ? Joint or muscle pain ?

 

[Ghost2211]

Hello, and welcome

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

That's horrible Does you entire body ache ? Joint or muscle pain ?

My knees are messed up, my hips hurt and so does my back and I'm still in my 20s. From my waist down is the worst pain and it makes walking around for long periods of time really painful and slow.

 

[Quarky00]

My knees are messed up, my hips hurt and so does my back and I'm still in my 20s. From my waist down is the worst pain and it makes walking around for long periods of time really painful and slow.

Oh yeah ;) Same here. Walking 10 minutes -- I'm dead ..

Have been checked? You could have some physical condition , or maybe malnutrition , etc . Insomnia contributes to that , hormone imbalance , thyroid , idk .

I recently had my first encounter with self harm and I get reminded every day of what I did to myself.

Do you want to share ? Looks like it's tough for you dealing with yourself ..

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

Oh yeah ;) Same here. Walking 10 minutes -- I'm dead ..

Have been checked? You could have some physical condition , or maybe malnutrition , etc . Insomnia contributes to that , thyroid , idk .

I have only been checked for my knees. Got a messed up meniscus with a tear in it and I recently found out that I have a curve in my spine. Wish I could get some pain meds for it. The other pain I don't have an explanation for which is so annoying because if I knew what I had I could get some treatment for it. Oh I also have insomnia which I'm sure contributes to some of it

 

[Quarky00]

You're all twisted , physically and mentally (Not insult just joking around )
Can't you get pain medication? Can it be treated? I don't know how severe it is , physical therapy , qi gong , massage , sleeping pills , pain medication , helped. Does not solve it but ease the pain .

I guess the mental distress is taking its toll as well. Bipolar and anxiety can perhaps be addressed. Many people were helped. I understand you developed strong tendencies (to say the least) for self-harm and suicide. It's okay and quite normal You are reflecting on those things. Maybe get the underlying conditions checked.

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

You're all twisted , physically and mentally (Not insult just joking around )
Can't you get pain medication? Can it be treated? I don't know how severe it is , physical therapy , qi gong , massage , sleeping pills , pain medication , helped. Does not solve it but ease the pain .

I guess the mental distress is taking its toll as well. Bipolar and anxiety can perhaps be addressed. Many people were helped. I understand you developed strong tendencies (to say the least) for self-harm and suicide. It's okay and quite normal You are reflecting on those things. Maybe get the underlying conditions checked.

Yeah I know I should just haven't got around to it yet. I've been to PT before and therapy which helped but only for the issues I had at the time. (She was only treating me for social anxiety) I wouldn't say it is too severe but moderate and I just power through the day even though it leaves me physically exhausted at the end. I'm just used to it by now but thank you for the concern.

 

[any%]

Welcome! And sorry that you are here.

 

[Quarky00]

Yeah we need multiple therapies and solutions combined that would treat several conditions (in multiple directions) at the same time.. Moderate is still bad and takes its toll over time . And then there's ups and downs :/

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

Yeah we need multiple therapies and solutions combined that would treat several conditions (in multiple directions) at the same time.. Moderate is still bad and takes its toll over time . And then there's ups and downs :/

Ups and downs are the absolute worst. Even when I'm feeling better I just know in a week or two I'll feel like sh*t again

 

[Quarky00]

That's the big despair . If we only had hope ...

There are bipolars here , and they usually recommend some psychiatric advice , you're not interested ? :)

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

Not saying I'm not interested, I think I'm gonna go back to therapy soon but I think talking to some bipolar here will help a bit

 

[jimbob1000]

Hi welcome, from the uk