Depressed_Kettle
Experienced
- Apr 25, 2021
- 253
I'm assuming the measurments are for pure alcohol? Not sure, I drink beer mostly, but pretty much daily atm. Around 4-5 liters a day, that would be around 160mg of alcohol I guess. Not sure about ml. Edit: should be about 0,2l?
It does help keep the dark/negative thoughts at bay in the moment, but hangovers make them worse, and I'm pretty sure it doesn't help longterm. I'd rather use something else, like weed, benzos or opiates. Pretty much anything that helps me sleep. Alcohol has some of the worst sideeffects imo, but I only have access to alcohol right now.
Back in 2020 I could drink a whole 500 ml brandy bottle in few hours. Vodka was too heavy for me back then so I drank less. Brandy was the choice for me. I got rid of the initial addiction in the summer same year and of course I lost alcohol tolerance. Now at my second addiction I mix brandy with liquor and vodka so I drink less overall, it takes me some days to empty all 3 bottles.
It does help me for a bit because it makes me numb and unaware of bs but these days I find it hard to numb myself which makes me go insane.
I know, it doesn't really make me feel that good either. Just numb and not full of anger and sadness. And my sleepschedule is fucked, I drink, then sleep for about 4 hours, drink some more until I can fall asleep again. I just started this drinking habbit a month ago after being in a psych ward for 6 weeks. There I was sober of course, apart from the meds they gave me, but I still felt like shit and didn't sleep well either. I just feel like I need something to knock me out at night, or I'll just be ruminating about shit for hours.That is definitely critical in terms of quantity.
And you definitely won't have a restful sleep - you'll just be numb.
I know, it doesn't really make me feel that good either. Just numb and not full of anger and sadness. And my sleepschedule is fucked, I drink, then sleep for about 4 hours, drink some more until I can fall asleep again. I just started this drinking habbit a month ago after being in a psych ward for 6 weeks. There I was sober of course, apart from the meds they gave me, but I still felt like shit and didn't sleep well either. I just feel like I need something to knock me out at night, or I'll just be ruminating about shit for hours.