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heylightiforgot
Experienced
- Apr 30, 2019
- 256
One of my concerns with SN is my extremely poor health status -- I have severe CFS, and am deteriorating more and more by the day. On top of this, my unfortunate living situation means trying to create windows of opportunity are becoming increasingly sparse, because I'm forced to push myself and stay up all night (to avoid noisy family), and trying to add in fasting etc. is nearly impossible. It would be so much easier if I could just do it when I wake up, but of course to make life even more difficult my mom works from home; I tried playing white noise recently loudly, and 'fake vomiting' and she runs upstairs immediately to check on me everytime.
I had a couple of 'good' nights last week where I had significant energy before bed, and I'm kind of mad at myself I didn't take the opportunity to do it (but, of course, when I have energy I feel good and don't want to CTB, or my anxiety levels are higher). If I do it before bed, the best I can manage is to fast 3 hours, but @gingerplum said that *should* be okay if it's just a light meal.
I'm very weak and sick and my stomach is a complete mess now. I think one of my concerns is that if I can get to my isolated location across the road and actually take the SN, my body being in such a weak/sick status might mean a) instant failure, and b) that I end up too helpless to even call ER services, in the event of a failure because even in my current health state just making calls etc. is difficult.
Then again, maybe being so sick means it's much likelier to kill me?
I had a couple of 'good' nights last week where I had significant energy before bed, and I'm kind of mad at myself I didn't take the opportunity to do it (but, of course, when I have energy I feel good and don't want to CTB, or my anxiety levels are higher). If I do it before bed, the best I can manage is to fast 3 hours, but @gingerplum said that *should* be okay if it's just a light meal.
I'm very weak and sick and my stomach is a complete mess now. I think one of my concerns is that if I can get to my isolated location across the road and actually take the SN, my body being in such a weak/sick status might mean a) instant failure, and b) that I end up too helpless to even call ER services, in the event of a failure because even in my current health state just making calls etc. is difficult.
Then again, maybe being so sick means it's much likelier to kill me?