Venting health is so important

[sanguineblade]

i really wish i could go back in time to the beautiful days i had my health
i had 3 severe accidents that left me with serious damage to almost every part of my body
my body is suffering prison and the thing is they happened way too early, i didnt get to live first :(
i wish i could turn back time :(

 

[newave3]

I'm so sorry to hear that. Poor physical health leads to poor mental health. Many of us are here because chronic physical pain has made us question how we can continue to live.
I wish I had a time machine for you.

 

[sanguineblade]

Yea but got way too far from me, the damage is i have is unreal, im honestly one in a million cases in the world...
if anybody would like to know about the problems i have can sure pm me, i just yet dont feel so ok talking about what happened publicly.
But i sometimes think that i should say it just to make others feel better about themselves because they probably dont have what I do (it's extremely rare).
yea @newave3 a time machine would be ideal :(

 

[Foogs]

Yeah, an "avatar of suffering" I've sometimes called myself. People take their health for granted. I'm so sorry you've lost yours

 

[sanguineblade]

they sure do!
im sorry @Foogs for your suffering as well.
honestly, i think a lot of people here will feel better about themselves after knowing the accident i have, if anyone feel free to message me.
I just want people to appreciate their health, it's the most precious thing u can have

 

[CiproKilledMe]

Yep. I lost my health thanks to an FDA-approved Rx antibiotic over a decade ago now. I'm completely bedridden and get so envious of other people for being able to do even the simplest of things like stand up or walk which they of course take for granted. I didn't get to do nearly all of the things I wanted to do in life (I was only 30 when I became disabled) so I'm not at all at peace with having to ctb. It sounds stupid but I often hope that maybe some future technology will allow for time travel and somehow, some way I'll get a second chance at all of this. Talk about grasping at straws. I looked into cryonics for a time also but they shot me right down when I inquired about whether or not they could accept a 'euthanasia' patient.

 

[Bullit]

Is there any hope at all that you can be helped?
I kind of wish I could give you my body, and th while you get at least a few good years!

 

[sanguineblade]

no I cannot be helped :(
thanks for your comm though
nothing can be done for my problems, not even for one of them
it's surreal
one happening 2 years after the other, seemed like a sealed fate

 

[TooConscious]

I was raised to never complain so I grew up with a major genetic abnormality until I finally collapsed and blood gushed from my mouth and my ass at 19 and I ended up in intensive care for weeks,
The disease untreated had caused several other 'major' problems that most people are signed of work for life over just one of them.
Instead I kept working and suffering increasing the symptoms and it got me nowhere and because I did work the social always stop my money telling me just to go back to work and bwa good little waste of suffering and don't try to seek help.

This world is sick and evil thrive.

 

[FuneralCry]

This life really can be cruel. Health problems can make our bodies into prisons and there can be no limit as to how bad it can get. There is also no escape from them. I'm sorry to hear you are suffering so much. It is why I see the right to die as so important.

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

Poor physical health leads to poor mental health. Many of us are here because chronic physical pain has made us question how we can continue to live.

Oh my this is SO true. My health went downhill fast when I was in my mid 20s but was poor before that (though I was still able to live somewhat normally). After my mid 20s though, my mental health declined faster and faster....and, just like the OP, I never truly got a chance to experience life and do what I'd hoped and dreamed of. So then like you wrote -- how, or I suppose 'why', continue to live? My life has been a miserable waste of time and only full of suffering and pain and sadness. Healthy people are the luckiest, most blessed and privileged people on the planet, imo.

It sounds stupid but I often hope that maybe some future technology will allow for time travel and somehow, some way I'll get a second chance at all of this. Talk about grasping at straws.

NOT stupid AT ALL. I've thought about and imagined the same thing. I'd give anything to go back in time and at least experience my 'better years' again, if not live all the rest of my life again as a healthy person. I can't imagine what life might've been for me had I not had chronic pain and the other issues I've had to deal with. It'd be life living in another world really.

 

[motel rooms]

Poor physical health leads to poor mental health.

And vice versa

 

[ihatemylife]

i really wish i could go back in time to the beautiful days i had my health
i had 3 severe accidents that left me with serious damage to almost every part of my body
my body is suffering prison and the thing is they happened way too early, i didnt get to live first :(
i wish i could turn back time :(

Same here, chronic pain destroys every aspect of a person. I used to love life, now I pray for death every night. My body is my prison which cannot be escaped.I'm sorry that it happened to you too.

 

[xrafinha]

I used to have full health until two years ago, until 29 years old. I mean full health. I'd go to 20 hours rave with easy, my body was a machine. Then I developed reflux for my own doing going into the gym and doing sit ups, and six months ago something happened to my body out of the blue and everything is fucked now. All I do is look at photos from when I was at full health and think how good it was. I always knew health was so important and I always had it. I was glad. I was a hypocondriac and so afraid I was to develop some desiese, and my worst nightmare became true.

I realised now I can no longer rest easy. I can't put on a movie or something and just fully relax. I'm always thinking I wont feel as I did before. Also I had just moved to live alone and I was dating a girl I really love. I'm (was) good at my work. All for nothing now. Can't enjoy it.

Not even sex makes me happy, and I really love the girl. I look around to all the things I won't be able to do anymore. Life is really pointless for me now, so I spend a great deal of my time on this forum assembleling the guts to kill myself. Many have done it, right? So will I (I hope). It's sad because I don't want to die, really. All my family members and friends are 100% health and I was one of them, but I also cannot life this way, like I'm carrying a 100000 pounds rock to wherever I attend. Perhaps another person in my position would be glad to have this body I got now, I mean, I can still walk, go outside, do stuff, but not me, I don't feel like settleling for a very inferior life.

Time machine would be nice, even if it was for living my life again from 0 to 29.


Long story short, I get you.

 

[comesandgoes84]

I used to have full health until two years ago, until 29 years old. I mean full health. I'd go to 20 hours rave with easy, my body was a machine. Then I developed reflux for my own doing going into the gym and doing sit ups, and six months ago something happened to my body out of the blue and everything is fucked now. All I do is look at photos from when I was at full health and think how good it was. I always knew health was so important and I always had it. I was glad. I was a hypocondriac and so afraid I was to develop some desiese, and my worst nightmare became true.

I realised now I can no longer rest easy. I can't put on a movie or something and just fully relax. I'm always thinking I wont feel as I did before. Also I had just moved to live alone and I was dating a girl I really love. I'm (was) good at my work. All for nothing now. Can't enjoy it.

Not even sex makes me happy, and I really love the girl. I look around to all the things I won't be able to do anymore. Life is really pointless for me now, so I spend a great deal of my time on this forum assembleling the guts to kill myself. Many have done it, right? So will I (I hope). It's sad because I don't want to die, really. All my family members and friends are 100% health and I was one of them, but I also cannot life this way, like I'm carrying a 100000 pounds rock to wherever I attend. Perhaps another person in my position would be glad to have this body I got now, I mean, I can still walk, go outside, do stuff, but not me, I don't feel like settleling for a very inferior life.

Time machine would be nice, even if it was for living my life again from 0 to 29.


Long story short, I get you.

I relate to this post so much. Do you have LPR? That's why I'm here. I used to be healthy and active and this reflux has left me a shadow of my former self. It is absolutely hell and I just don't want to do it for the rest of my life.

 

[Sisyphus]

I relate to this post so much. Do you have LPR? That's why I'm here. I used to be healthy and active and this reflux has left me a shadow of my former self. It is absolutely hell and I just don't want to do it for the rest of my life.

I have LPR, among other things, and it really is bad. Have you tried PPIs, acid watcher diet, or surgery (nissen)? They are testing me right now for the surgery, hopefully to be completed next month.

 

[comesandgoes84]

I have LPR, among other things, and it really is bad. Have you tried PPIs, acid watcher diet, or surgery (nissen)? They are testing me right now for the surgery, hopefully to be completed next month.

I've tried PPI, AWD, and after investigating the surgeries for hours on FB groups it just doesn't seem like it works for LPR in most cases. I hope you have a great result. I would cope with any surgical side effects if it meant I could be free of the LPR.

 

[xrafinha]

I relate to this post so much. Do you have LPR? That's why I'm here. I used to be healthy and active and this reflux has left me a shadow of my former self. It is absolutely hell and I just don't want to do it for the rest of my life.

Yeah, and I did it to myself going to the gym, that hurts the most. But aside from that some other stuff happened to my digestion, can't know what is is, but it's fucking slow now, even water takes very long to be absorved, so I basicaly trade a 747 air plain for a bicicle, that's how I feel about my body now...

 

[killedbypsychiatry]

I'm so sorry you've lost your health, I understand how awful it is. Health is what I valued the most and I lost it… thanks to a stupid doctor (medical negligence/ harm) I didn't even wanted to see… I hate living like this, I grieve my old self every day and no one around me understands the pain, they think I'm just crazy but how can I be happy when I lost my emotions, cognition, sexuality, vitality, energy, etc…!?

 

[khz89]

I definitely understand wanting to die from poor health. I got CFS in my 20s and it changed everything, you can no longer do any of the things that made you "you". You realize that "you" were just an illusion, that you have to let go of. A human being with no energy is like dying while still alive.

 

[sanguineblade]

thank you guys for all your messages ! :)