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deafsilence
Member
- Oct 22, 2018
- 10
My plan is to end my life putting my head on rails. That's the only method I can think of because I'm under constant watch aside from going home from my shitty job. I tried suspension hanging twice and it didn't work, the second time I had been seen in the middle of it and was taken to a psychiatric ward (horrible experience, everybody was constantly begging for food, I can't even fathom how "society" thinks these hospitals, at least in Poland, can help anybody in depression) where I spent two months.
I'm not going to lie to you, it's going to taken major balls to pull this off, but I can't function anymore, nor do I want to be a part of this shithole we call society. My question is what do you guys think about it? I've planned to do it in a place where the train goes full speed and my concern is that the train driver might see me at a distance and suspect that I may want to kill myself, but the braking distance should be long enough to depart my head from my body. I'm also thinking about going there a few times to get used to the idea. Another question is if you guys know where I could find videos of people killing themselves this method? I think I saw one and tried googling for more, but I'm not the best at it. Do you know places on darknet of people killing themselves and tell me how I can find what I'm searching for? I think maybe using the TOR browser would help me?
I'm not going to lie to you, it's going to taken major balls to pull this off, but I can't function anymore, nor do I want to be a part of this shithole we call society. My question is what do you guys think about it? I've planned to do it in a place where the train goes full speed and my concern is that the train driver might see me at a distance and suspect that I may want to kill myself, but the braking distance should be long enough to depart my head from my body. I'm also thinking about going there a few times to get used to the idea. Another question is if you guys know where I could find videos of people killing themselves this method? I think I saw one and tried googling for more, but I'm not the best at it. Do you know places on darknet of people killing themselves and tell me how I can find what I'm searching for? I think maybe using the TOR browser would help me?