dumblosergirl
girl failure
- Feb 13, 2023
- 67
I've been having the SN in my possesion for 5 months now and I have not done anything. I have suicidal thoughts from time to time and a plan in mind. I have not done any date or time specifics though. I feel like I'm being punished staying on this world for longer. I worry about the people I will leave stuff behind for. (debt and such not really care, I feel like people would get over my death easily) I've been tempted to construct a suicide note to push myself into doing it more. Living is just too difficult. I find my thoughts are way heavier than people imagine. They try to cheer me up but I feel like a lost cause and broken. I have tried therapy but I feel worse knowing I'm making no progress and I'm still the same. I made the effort but I can't do it anymore. Everything is so hard. I'm such a loser but alas, I'm too coward to act and continue to suffer.