Rachel74

Rachel74

Enlightened
Sep 7, 2019
1,716
I honestly thought having access to N would make you less want to CTB as you'd have it there is you needed it but I'm honestly thinking now if something upset me then it's that easy to take and you can't have any regrets.
Trying to explain to my partner that the fight is going, and im so scared of what I could stupidly do on a whim. I'm not the backbreaking, confidant bitch he met, I'm a timid person now that is scared of everything.
 
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Life+me=error

Life+me=error

Warlock
May 22, 2019
736
A month or two after obtaining my N I tried to give life another chance. I thought I could use N as a motivation. Everytime I experienced a bad situation or day I remembered myself how I can end all this pain tonight. However, now after a couple of months of owning N I can say it has little to no effect on reigniting my will to live.

The lesson I have learned, N is an elixir to end it all nothing else.
 
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bigj75

bigj75

“From Knowledge springs power."
Sep 1, 2018
2,540
A month or two after obtaining my N I tried to give life another chance. I thought I could use N as a motivation. Everytime I experienced a bad situation or day I remembered myself how I can end all this pain tonight. However, now after a couple of months of owning N I can say it has little to no effect on reigniting my will to live.

The lesson I have learned, N is an elixir to end it all nothing else.
wow. so it's just a means to an end.
 
Darkhaven

Darkhaven

All i have left is memories
May 19, 2019
979
Yeah, i guess it serves as an assurance to keep you a bit calmer and make you a bit less sensible to life's problems and disappointments, but in the end it won't change your life around.
You're still you and the reasons you may have to ctb won't disappear because of those 2 bottles of N.
That's just my 2 cents. Other people may experience a different effect.
 
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Qverty7455

Qverty7455

Student
Sep 28, 2019
195
how you guys obtained N and how do you know it's 100% legit and not scam ? sorry I am new there but it will be my desired way to go once things get unbearable
 
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falconeyes

Member
Sep 27, 2019
80
Getting the tool to CTB doesn't solve the problem, otherwise after awhile makes it worse. I've easy access to many drug related methods to CTB and till now I don't get the guts to use any, which makes me feel more useless helpless person.
 
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