Having a "feel better" moment.

[PatKat]

I feel better for about the past 30 minutes. It will pass soon and i wish it wouldnt... :(

 

[Miss clefable]

I feel better for about the past 30 minutes. It will pass soon and i wish it wouldnt... :(

Hugs don't we all

 

[PatKat]

Hugs don't we all

Sigh...

 

[Bringmepeace]

I had this just recently, I spoke to my sister of my plans, she is not happy but ok with it as she is close as well, spent a good 3hours talking and for once in my miserable existence I actually like someone understood the way I feel, that quickly goes though when the rest of my s**t comes back to the surface.

 

[bigj75]

I'll admit having a social life helps sometimes. Drinking and hanging out with buddies helps for a little while.

 

[Bringmepeace]

I'll admit having a social life helps sometimes. Drinking and hanging out with buddies helps for a little while.

It would but aspergers distroys that for me, I have no social life. What are these friends you speak of? What's one of them?

 

[Miss clefable]

It would but aspergers distroys that for me, I have no social life. What are these friends you speak of? What's one of them?

Pretty much the same I meet people and they just hate me

 

[Bringmepeace]

Sounds about right, it's the same everywhere I go, soon as someone starts getting to know me they disappear because I'm different and they don't want to be associated with me

 

[bigj75]

It would but aspergers distroys that for me, I have no social life. What are these friends you speak of? What's one of them?

co-workers pretty much. They invite you to something on the weekend or get lunch together.

 

[DF90]

Love ya buddy. :(

 

[PeakyBlinder]

I felt the same way yesterday and the day before because of hanging out with my brother. I almost tought life could be enjoyable.

But then I failed my attempt with exit bag and have to start all over.

Life is not fair my friends, it never will be.

 

[PatKat]

Love ya buddy. :(

I got DF love im happier now I dont think you hate me anymore :)

 

[PatKat]

I felt the same way yesterday and the day before because of hanging out with my brother. I almost tought life could be enjoyable.

But then I failed my attempt with exit bag and have to start all over.

Life is not fair my friends, it never will be.

Yea i will randomly get like an hour of clarity it seems, but then I go right back to how I have been for 22 years...

 

[PatKat]

I'll admit having a social life helps sometimes. Drinking and hanging out with buddies helps for a little while.

I dont leave home, I sit here and drink thats pretty much it. I do not want to go out there.

 

[Tiburcio]

I remember when I had better moments and used to think things would turn better... Yeah, how naive I was... How strong life hit me once, another time and other, over and over again...

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

Sometimes I feel good for a week and I start to think maybe there's some hope if I have the energy to start planning for our future reality punches me in the face again

 

[ScaredOfLife]

I felt the same way yesterday and the day before because of hanging out with my brother. I almost tought life could be enjoyable.

But then I failed my attempt with exit bag and have to start all over.

Life is not fair my friends, it never will be.

What went wrong with the exit bag?

(Sorry to hijack the thread OP. I'd be grateful for even a half hour reprieve from this depression nonsense. But then again, maybe not since it wouldn't last and would only serve to get my hopes up only to come crashing down again.)

 

[PatKat]

I remember when I had better moments and used to think things would turn better... Yeah, how naive I was... How strong life hit me once, another time and other, over and over again...

Yea they do not trick me anymore....

 

[PeakyBlinder]

What went wrong with the exit bag?

(Sorry to hijack the thread OP. I'd be grateful for even a half hour reprieve from this depression nonsense. But then again, maybe not since it wouldn't last and would only serve to get my hopes up only to come crashing down again.)

I had made the perfect custom exitbag, mounted everything, no leaks, a flowmeter, enough argon in the tank to last 100 minutes with a flowrate of 20 L/minute. The cilinder was way too big and bulky but didn't know that before I ordered it.

Did a test run and it felt really good, never been high/drunk before but I think that is how it feels like. Alone in my car in the woods but then.... I chickend out. Why? The plastic bag over my head, hissing of gas made it feel surreal and scary, then this led to a train of toughts where I talked myself out of it.

'Life is not too bad' -Stupid me yesterday

 

[bigj75]

I dont leave home, I sit here and drink thats pretty much it. I do not want to go out there.

Understandably so. It's crazy out here. I tend to stay inside myself most of the time.

 

[GeorgeEastman]

It would but aspergers distroys that for me, I have no social life. What are these friends you speak of? What's one of them?

Yep, and this is why I need to die.

The curse. Not being able to have friends, not being able to be anywhere close to normal, yet being forced to fit in just to keep from starving in the gutter somewhere. Life wasn't made for us.

We are just machines for the normals to use like robots, then take a big shit on when we burn out. It's a bad deal for us. Each day I keep on with it, I feel like a bigger and bigger idiot getting ripped off.

 

[bigj75]

Yep, and this is why I need to die.

The curse. Not being able to have friends, not being able to be anywhere close to normal, yet being forced to fit in just to keep from starving in the gutter somewhere. Life wasn't made for us.

We are just machines for the normals to use like robots, then take a big shit on when we burn out. It's a bad deal for us. Each day I keep on with it, I feel like a bigger and bigger idiot getting ripped off.

Wow spot on.

 

[DF90]

I got DF love im happier now I dont think you hate me anymore :)

Can't hate the PatKat!

 

[Marystevenson1001]

Now I'm having a feel better moment too. Doc gave me some Cymbalta. I'm having awful physical side effects but mentally I do feel a little more calm. Less anxiety and not so hopeless. This is only day 2 tho and I still have not been able to get out of bed or function.

 

[Bringmepeace]

Yep, and this is why I need to die.

The curse. Not being able to have friends, not being able to be anywhere close to normal, yet being forced to fit in just to keep from starving in the gutter somewhere. Life wasn't made for us.

We are just machines for the normals to use like robots, then take a big shit on when we burn out. It's a bad deal for us. Each day I keep on with it, I feel like a bigger and bigger idiot getting ripped off.

Yep I completely agree, this place was not made for us but what is worse is when you tell people about your condition and they basically tell you that it's made up, really gets me down, I don't worry anymore though as I know this struggle will be over soon

 

[Iwant2sleepforever]

I feel better for about the past 30 minutes. It will pass soon and i wish it wouldnt... :(

I have these all the time, then I hit rock bottom again and it makes everything worse, it's a never ending cycle.

 

[PatKat]

I have these all the time, then I hit rock bottom again and it makes everything worse, it's a never ending cycle.

It really is... :(