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GhostCat25

GhostCat25

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Spring is here and I walked along the waterfront today and caught the sun rays on my face. It was so calming and beautiful. I almost forgot how that has always been one of my favorite things to do.

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That feeling reminded me of the scenery of this country I visited. It's 2-3 hours away from where I live.

Then a thought sprung up on me; "I would like to take in the beauty of nature as my last sights on Earth, and feel all the sensations as the vast mother nature envelopes my soul before coming "home". A homecoming that is familiar and intimate."

I'll probably visit the nature, swim, camp a few days and come back to the hotel for my finality. As ironic as that is, part of me wants to experience what it's like to be alive before I eternally rest... I see this a lot in people's final moments.

The juxtaposition to manifest and live such complexity makes us "human"; the inevitability of ouroboros.

My questions are:
- Would you ctb in a beautiful/favorite country? If so, where and how? (If you'd like to chime in and share, ofc)
- As for logistics, is there any repercussions for ctb in a foreign land? Like your family having to pay transport fees for your body?

All in all, I hope the sun rays where you are is a gentle as the one I felt today. 😊☀️🌄🌅🌤️
 
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kk13

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yes, i want to die surrounded by nature. not sure which country tho. maybe in italy, or brazil. idk how tho but i think bleeding out would be peaceful.
 
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yes, i want to die surrounded by nature. not sure which country tho. maybe in italy, or brazil. idk how tho but i think bleeding out would be peaceful.
I can understand your yearning for Italy bc I've backpacked to Italy before and it's breathtaking. I never felt so alive in a country and it's definitely one of my favorite destination. It awakened so many sensations in me.

If you can, you should definitely visit. 😊
 
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yotaka

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Jan 29, 2026
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I wish I could go back to Japan and end things there. It's such a beautiful place. That's just a dream, though. I don't think it could realistically happen.
 
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