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- Jul 7, 2022
- 228
Yes it did because it changed my views about humanity. Girls in my class pretended to be friends with me and held my head underwater one day when we were swimming. I almost died, and felt water rushing down my throat and into my lungs, and it burned so bad. But I punched them and escaped. That was when I was 9.
AuroraB
Student
- Oct 20, 2024
- 126
i donate blood. frequently. up until this day, i had never fainted. a few years back i had just donated and had to go pick up a car load of moving boxes for a friend. i got to this stranger's driveway to get the boxes (free, craigslist), opened the hatch, said hello to the mom and adult son helping me load the boxes and suddenly, i just knew i was going to die right then in their driveway. i remember thinking this and kinda laughing. i'm going to die in some random stranger's driveway in the middle of this lame suburb. i felt so free and happy. i said to them "i just donated blood and i think i'm going to faint now." i woke up 30 minutes later about 40 feet away from the car, on their grass, with cookies and juice and i had no idea how i got there or what happened. it was kinda fun.
in the mid 1970s i tried to CTB in 9th grade. my 1st and last attempt (1976). drugs/booze. i called a bestie on my "teen phone number" to say bye and they called my mom's phone # upstairs. mom called 911. i have a vivid recollection of being in an operating room surrounded by glass windows, passed out completely and above my body...seeing my own body laying on the hospital bed/guerney and seeing my parents in the windows looking into the room. i remember watching myself trying to pull out a nasal cannula and other tubes. i remember being really peaceful and not afraid and wondering how my dad even got there so quickly (parents divorced). surreal.
in the mid 1970s i tried to CTB in 9th grade. my 1st and last attempt (1976). drugs/booze. i called a bestie on my "teen phone number" to say bye and they called my mom's phone # upstairs. mom called 911. i have a vivid recollection of being in an operating room surrounded by glass windows, passed out completely and above my body...seeing my own body laying on the hospital bed/guerney and seeing my parents in the windows looking into the room. i remember watching myself trying to pull out a nasal cannula and other tubes. i remember being really peaceful and not afraid and wondering how my dad even got there so quickly (parents divorced). surreal.
I'd say no- in terms of the physical process of dying. The first gallstone attack I had, I thought was a heart attack though. Tremendous cramping pain in the chest, shortness of breath. A whole shit load of pain. But, I didn't call for an ambulance because I felt ready to die. So- the fear of dying didn't put me off letting it happen at that point. I'm hoping it wouldn't on an actual attempt too.
I doubt that's what you mean though. I expect you mean more actual near death experiences with visions and what have you.
I doubt that's what you mean though. I expect you mean more actual near death experiences with visions and what have you.
Agon321
I use google translate
- Aug 21, 2023
- 1,510
I'm not sure.
About 2 years ago I probably had a heart attack or something like that. It's worth mentioning that I'm a young man.
Honestly, I thought I was dying. It wasn't painful, but I felt intense discomfort.
In the end, I just lost consciousness.
When I woke up, I felt very cold and shivered.
I don't know how close I was to death, but I really was convinced that my life was ending.
About 2 years ago I probably had a heart attack or something like that. It's worth mentioning that I'm a young man.
Honestly, I thought I was dying. It wasn't painful, but I felt intense discomfort.
In the end, I just lost consciousness.
When I woke up, I felt very cold and shivered.
I don't know how close I was to death, but I really was convinced that my life was ending.
Demian
Experienced
- Mar 25, 2024
- 218
I was in a coma for 22 days after an extremely high overdose of morphine and phenobarbital. I still have the same faith in God. Nothing has changed for me.
nihilistic_dragon
Dead already. Just need to dispose of my body now.
- Aug 6, 2024
- 583
What ended up happening when you didn't call for an ambulance?
maneose
i’ll stop stabbing you when you stop screaming
- Sep 10, 2023
- 58
i almost drowned when i was around 2-4(?), i only remember snips and pieces, and only really realized it because my family constantly told me about it when i was young. it wasn't anything major so it doesn't really change my perspective on life, i grew up christian and still am. kinda hate the narrative that god just lets bad things happen, for me god has no control over the good and the bad, mostly, maybe he needs to charge up before casting his spell of goodness in your life.
The pain eventually passed but I felt like I'd been kicked in the guts for a few days after. Combining my reluctance to go to the doctor and how naff the NHS is, I had 13 more attacks. In the end, the pain wasn't going away and I couldn't cope with it anymore. They found a stone had moved into the bile duct. So, they removed that and then, removed the gallbladder for good measure.
I expect in the end, it might have killed me if I'd continued to do nothing. It starts to affect the pancreas because they share that duct. You can't get rid of dead red blood cells so, you go jaundice. But- that's the problem with natural death- you don't know how long you'll have to wait. On the upside, they prescribed me Metoclopramide. it's a few years out of date but I'm hoping it would still be ok for SN if I ever have the guts to do it.
As much I want to die, there is no way I could endure 13 attacks… you must be a very strong person! Kudos.
More like- I'm a coward not wanting to see a doctor but yeah- it was an awful period. I was so scared to eat and trigger an attack. Maybe I'm weak though because, other members here have had it and said it wasn't so bad for them. Whatever else though, it's the worst pain I've ever had. I used to curse at God- in case there is one saying- 'If you're killing me- stop faffing about and get on with it!'
Wow, this is similar to what happened to me too actually. My gall bladder was so bad back in 2019. I struggled with it from the end of October - the beginning of November.
I was living with my mom at the time because I lost my job due to the Covid 19 pandemic. Our business shut down across the country. But anyway, I remember that I felt horrible pain one night and woke mom up. That was my first attack and I felt better when I threw up. Then I had a second attack, and mom rushed me to the hospital in the nearest city. And I had a gallstone. My mom eventually convinced me to try a little Chinese food, thinking it wouldn't trigger it, and it did. It was such horrible pain that we rushed to the hospital again, and I was operated on in surgery that night. If I hadn't, they determined my gall bladder would have exploded and infected all my other organs. My gall bladder got removed.
I suffered an insane reaction to a psych med last december that lit my nervous system on fire and induced psychosis. I was wandering through the forest and the city in delusions and terrible despair and at some point I begun to fall asleep out there in the cold and the rain - I don't have clear memory of when and how it happened but at some point I had a vision of a black universe shot through with lightnings of pain - a pain ever deepening and expanding. Recently I stumbled on an NDE description on reddit where someone visited a blissful realm and then:
"I was also guided to the dark place that is so far away from our glowing cord of good souls. This place has no light, in this place you'll know you're in hell and that you'll be there for all eternity. No thoughts except for ones knowing you are a bad person huant your mind. The darkness leaves you in a terrified paralysis where you cant see anything except for the vast dark emptiness of a hellish universe with no stars, no light, no anything, not even thought."
That's exactly what I saw during my psychotix breakdown. I don't know what to think of this. I wish I wasn't forced to believe that this is where I go in the end..
"I was also guided to the dark place that is so far away from our glowing cord of good souls. This place has no light, in this place you'll know you're in hell and that you'll be there for all eternity. No thoughts except for ones knowing you are a bad person huant your mind. The darkness leaves you in a terrified paralysis where you cant see anything except for the vast dark emptiness of a hellish universe with no stars, no light, no anything, not even thought."
That's exactly what I saw during my psychotix breakdown. I don't know what to think of this. I wish I wasn't forced to believe that this is where I go in the end..
