Have you gotten close to hanging and backed out?

[maybeimalreadydead]

how close would you say you felt? Did you feel tingles, the head exploding, or just black out? Did you back out or were you saved? Did you see anything in what felt like final moments?
I feel like I got closer than ever. I must've finally hit that spot. My legs began to get tingly and I got nervous. Now I'm really mad at myself for allowing my SI to kick in. I will say I found I started to imagine my girlfriend telling me to picture the waves. I could imagine the movement of water. It was serene until my mind got scared of the feeling. I'm going to keep trying/practicing though.

 

[TotallyIsolated]

Closest I managed was just practicing a proper slipknot, and pulling the other end by hand. I lacked either the strength or the courage to actually cut off any blood flow.

 

[forever21]

Closest I managed was just practicing a proper slipknot, and pulling the other end by hand. I lacked either the strength or the courage to actually cut off any blood flow.

Same happened to me. It was partial thow. I still don't know what my mistake was.

 

[TotallyIsolated]

Same happened to me. It was partial thow. I still don't know what my mistake was.

Ive read guides and watched videos, but I'm still not sure where its supposed to go on your neck. They say you should be able to feel the artery with your hand around your neck but IDK

 

[Ark]

Many years ago I wanted to test partial hanging. I used a belt over a door with a knot on the other end. I must have hit my carotids just right as within seconds I felt like I was going to pass out. I have tried to reproduce it a few times since out of curiosity but was never able to.

 

[waterbottleman]

I tried partial hanging myself about a month ago, but got scared quickly and backed out.

I've realized since then that I cannot deal with hanging myself or shooting myself with a gun (I'm in the US so I could get a gun if I wanted to).

Anything violent is too gruesome for me, i hate violence to the point that even movies that become too violent I have to shut it off or it'll ruin my mood for the entire day.

SN is the best accessible method for me because of how peaceful it is relatively speaking. You just drink something then pass about minutes later. I can deal with that emotionally.

 

[maybeimalreadydead]

Trying to recreate it once you finally find it is hard. I'm pretty underweight however, so I can tilt my head up and usually see my neck throbbing in the right spots. My biggest issue is over coming my SI. Like while I think I've found the correct spot, but that counting down is difficult. And I don't think I'm using enough pressure initially. I yank for partial but my only available tool as of now has some slight elasticity which I know can make it harder to be successful but I don't think impossible. It may end up having to be full but I'm not sure as of yet.

 

[Marz]

I have gotten close to blacking out but unfortunately I have never been able to get the knot to not crush my windpipe so my SI has always stopped me. The worst part is that my knots are not done badly, and my neck is very thin, but somehow I always fuck up that part.

 

[Nem0]

I've tried hanging the most out of any other method. Even though I haven't tried in the past few months my noose is still hanging there waiting for me to try again. Most of the time I pussy out after it starts getting really painful. I've tried a number of different flavors too. A belt, rope over a door, at work with the harness line on a high lift, air rifle in the mouth while neck is in noose, drunk. The closest one I've tried was where I blacked out for a while the one time I tried full suspension. I'm a fatass so the rope snapped. Waking from that hurt like hell.

 

[FreeBIRD]

This might seem weird but I'm more afraid of getting red eyes because of the pression in the eyes I don't know it creeps me out

 

[NoFOMO]

Had an attempt on Sunday. First proper attempt at partial.
It helped I was stupid drunk.
It was taking too long so I knew I didn't hit the right spot and had to abort. My head did get fuzzy and I think I'm still feeling some sort of effect from it in my head.
I imagined failing the attempt and due to not hitting the CA I'd have to live out the rest of my life with major side effects.
Edit: oh and searching on DDG what I did wrong is how I found this place.

 

[Nem0]

This might seem weird but I'm more afraid of getting red eyes because of the pression in the eyes I don't know it creeps me out

Usually for me my face broke out into tons of red spots. Pretty sure I only got really blood shot eyes after one attempt, and it wasn't even the blackout one.

 

[Sweet emotion]

I'm just interested. Why does everyone try partial hanging if they want to die? Why not just hang yourself from a beam or a tree?

 

[R_N]

I'm just interested. Why does everyone try partial hanging if they want to die? Why not just hang yourself from a beam or a tree?

They probably want it to be painless. With full suspension you never know if you are going to suffer or not.

 

[Marz]

I'm just interested. Why does everyone try partial hanging if they want to die? Why not just hang yourself from a beam or a tree?

Hard to find in metropolies. Many apartments don't have proper beams, and trees are hard to come by where I live, the only available ones are in public parks or reservations and they all have surveillance.
Now, if I lived near nature you can bet I'd do so from some tree.

 

[Sweet emotion]

They probably want it to be painless. With full suspension you never know if you are going to suffer or not.

I can understand that but so many partials don't work. I think everyone in this page has tried and failed. At least with full suspension you'll die.

 

[Flightlinek]

Over the years, I've tried to get around my own insecurities about doing it wrong and bypass SI by hiring someone to do it for me... I've had several people try, so I have some experiences on this topic.

Every time I blacked out, it only took seconds. The first signs were that I was a little lightheaded, with tingling in my extremities. You should feel this within the first 3-5 seconds; if you don't, something isn't pressing the right places. Also, this was when SI really started to kick in... I was always tempted to say "Stop" or struggle at this point... and later learned to distract myself by moving one of my hands or arms (you're going to convulse once you go dark anyway, so that won't change anything or make it less effective). Focusing on that movement gets me through the 2-3 seconds of fear and slight discomfort before I go totally black.

I pretty consistently feel that sends of tingling first, followed by pressure in my head, roaring in my ears, an overall numbness in my body and blurred then darkening vision... usually (but not always) in that order. Once you go black, it's just nothingness.. either until you wake up (like me) or forever.

Although i've had people trying to get this done for me, they always released pressure too early. If you're hanging and alone, you shouldn't have that problem. I did have one person who used a belt over the door and stayed with me while I did partial on my own... in that one case, I was saved because once I went out and started convulsing, the belt broke and I woke up on the floor some time later.

In almost every case, once I had gone black then come back, I didn't want to do it anymore (at least, right that very moment). That might be a good part of why I'm still here, but I can't figure out if there's a reason for that or if it's just primal SI kicking in when it realizes I was almost done. :(

 

[Nem0]

I can understand that but so many partials don't work. I think everyone in this page has tried and failed. At least with full suspension you'll die.

I would say the issue with full is overcoming SI. It's the same issue with a gun, jumping, or other actions that your mind associates heavily with death. I've tried to push myself to do full a bunch, but only managed to actually attempt once. That one failed time was the most painful day in my life, and I have experienced many other extreme pains. Partial gets past most of the SI and pain issues if you can get it right.

 

[Weakling666]

Overcoming SI is definitely a big factor in this method. Personally, sometime in October this year I attempted to do this via a belt and a secure door. Took forever as I obviously wasn't doing it right, but I got close before I fell down. Once I was able to stand without falling I ran to a mirror and my eyes were bloodshot, entire head very itchy. Its been 2 months and I still have the marks.

 

[Sweet emotion]

Man why does suicide have to be so damn hard! I wish there was just a pill that we could take when we are at our lowest and just lie down and fall asleep. But no, with pills you have to prepare as with a lot of other methods and the SI always kicks in. I don't think we all want to die, we just want to end our suffering and pain. Unfortunately there is no in between. One of my friends passed away on here. Her name was Dawn. She said she was going to let people know when she was going but I never got anything from her. I feel bad. She was in a lot of emotional pain. I'm glad she's at peace but we lost someone really wonderful.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I've been close a few times to being successful with partial suspension. I took opiates both times so I would be more relaxed and willing. The closest I've gotten was right before the full blackout phase. I stopped myself or I would've been successful. It just wasn't my time yet.

 

[mediocre]

I tried several times I practised pulling on the rope but it was so uncomfortable my head felt like it was exploding and my eyes felt like they were going to pop out. I couldn't step off the chair because I knew it would take me a minute or two to choke to death and I was too scared to experience that. The last time I tried it I was in tears afterward and had to go to my mums house to tell her. I didn't know what else to do...

its such a hard method I don't understand how so many people have been able to do it successfully. You have to experience choking to death for it to work.

 

[Terminated]

I was completely sober and attempted a partial-suspension hanging about 1 year ago. I saw white light cloud my vision from the outside, working in. I was seconds from passing out but I stood up, that's one of my biggest regrets in life.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I'm just interested. Why does everyone try partial hanging if they want to die? Why not just hang yourself from a beam or a tree?

There is a commonly perpetuated myth that it is easier and doesn't hurt if you do it right.
Unfortunately, if it doesn't hurt then you are not doing it right.