Completely desperate to CTB.
Bed sheet is twisted up and tied (no special knot) to bar in closet.
Noose is a slip knot with one loop
Can kneel into it and feel pressure (speaking on last attempt) but I guess to pass out I will have to just drop myself into it? I'm scared to do this because my neck hurt for a while after just kneeling/sitting multiple times when I "eased in" to the noose.
Closest I think I got is when I was kneeling into the noose, eased in as usual and I applied more pressure leaning down/forward with my neck, started hearing a a weird repetitive womping sound and got worse tinnitus. Red dots all over face and eyes.
Wonder if I just stuck with that position if I could have blacked out. I also wonder if I just apply enough pressure regardless of any uncomfortable feeling in head if I can possibly succeed...
Bed sheet is twisted up and tied (no special knot) to bar in closet.
Noose is a slip knot with one loop
Can kneel into it and feel pressure (speaking on last attempt) but I guess to pass out I will have to just drop myself into it? I'm scared to do this because my neck hurt for a while after just kneeling/sitting multiple times when I "eased in" to the noose.
Closest I think I got is when I was kneeling into the noose, eased in as usual and I applied more pressure leaning down/forward with my neck, started hearing a a weird repetitive womping sound and got worse tinnitus. Red dots all over face and eyes.
Wonder if I just stuck with that position if I could have blacked out. I also wonder if I just apply enough pressure regardless of any uncomfortable feeling in head if I can possibly succeed...
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