natali4
Student
- May 24, 2021
- 147
When I was spiraling I tried calling up some friends and explaining what's going on with me. They told me that I should be stronger than this and basically dismissed my pain. I am not very good at expressing myself and maybe it was my fault, maybe I just failed at expressing what I was really feeling. But whether it was my fault or not, I no longer want to tell anyone in my real life what I'm going through. When people trivialize my pain it makes me feel worse. I was angry for a long time (still get angry sometimes) but I realized that they are not intentional doing this to me. They are what we like to call normies, and there's just no way they can ever understand what makes a person want to ctb. I like this community because even with all the social anxiety and PTSD, I can't believe I feel comfortable (somewhat) venting and expressing myself here.