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aroutinemalaise

aroutinemalaise

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May 24, 2020
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hi, this is my first post, i really look forward to interacting with some of y'all before it's time :))

i've decided on june 9th. this is because its very close, and a significant date. my younger brother (at the time 13) ctb march 14th 2018, and since i've misses THAT window, i've decided on june 9th. it was his birthday. i've decided on the SN method and have it ordered (should be here june 2nd, got it off amazon)

i have a week and a half to finalize plan details, write letters, clean my house and say goodbye. i've been waiting for this since i was at least 12, and i'm so happy to have found a community where i can be 100% honest and not have my choice taken away. i will probably be making quite a few posts before my date, and i'm so relieved, all i can feel is relief. feel free to PM me if you have questions about me :))

-pigeon
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

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Mar 23, 2018
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Welcome to S.S. :hug:
Sorry things in life have brought you to this point like most of us on here. :hug:
I hope you have thought everything through and are planning well. If for some reason you change your mind you are always welcome here.
If for any reason you can't go through with it or fail, there is no shame in that. I have failed at an attempt and chickened out before.
You sound like you might be young. (Don't post your age) It has been pointed out to me before that I should say "Have you exhausted all other options"
I feel like a hypocrite for saying things like that because if I had died young it would have saved me years of misery.

Anyway ... Take care of yourself. :hug:
 
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May 22, 2020
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hi, this is my first post, i really look forward to interacting with some of y'all before it's time :))

i've decided on june 9th. this is because its very close, and a significant date. my younger brother (at the time 13) ctb march 14th 2018, and since i've misses THAT window, i've decided on june 9th. it was his birthday. i've decided on the SN method and have it ordered (should be here june 2nd, got it off amazon)

i have a week and a half to finalize plan details, write letters, clean my house and say goodbye. i've been waiting for this since i was at least 12, and i'm so happy to have found a community where i can be 100% honest and not have my choice taken away. i will probably be making quite a few posts before my date, and i'm so relieved, all i can feel is relief. feel free to PM me if you have questions about me :))

-pigeon
Were you close to your brother? That has to be so difficult. I understand that now you've made a decision, you are feeling relieved. You have found a safe community. I'm stuck on what to say because your words read so joyfully. Have things been really bad? I hope you find peace.
 
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Most of us here are in a similar boat so we understand ur situation very well my friend. U r always welcome here and will be with u no matter what u decide ...
 
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Jacky123

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May 27, 2020
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Thanks for sharing, I am new here also. I can relate to you but i would like to try to buy N first because that's my preferred method. But if i fail to purchase the N i would go for SN as well. Did you manage to buy any antiemetic and beta blocker?
Best wishes
 
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Kumachan

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Mar 5, 2020
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i thought by date the OP meant suicide partner:)
 
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aroutinemalaise

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May 24, 2020
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i thought by date the OP meant suicide partner:)
omg, I wish haha. the only person who would even consider that if my boyfriend, but he's currently trying to make his mental health better and still has some fight in him I believe, which I'm very proud of :))
Were you close to your brother? That has to be so difficult. I understand that now you've made a decision, you are feeling relieved. You have found a safe community. I'm stuck on what to say because your words read so joyfully. Have things been really bad? I hope you find peace.
ehh not really, we had a normal sibling relationship though :)) we fought a lot but could play video games together no problem. I drove him places, and he was my annoying little brother. I'm excited to finally join him, hopefully, wherever he is

I very much appreciate that, I do feel very joyful. this is the happiest I've felt in a very long time, and I have no regrets/remorse/wishfulness. I've done everything I could have wanted to, and had some crazy and emotional experiences
 
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hi, this is my first post, i really look forward to interacting with some of y'all before it's time :))

i've decided on june 9th. this is because its very close, and a significant date. my younger brother (at the time 13) ctb march 14th 2018, and since i've misses THAT window, i've decided on june 9th. it was his birthday. i've decided on the SN method and have it ordered (should be here june 2nd, got it off amazon)

i have a week and a half to finalize plan details, write letters, clean my house and say goodbye. i've been waiting for this since i was at least 12, and i'm so happy to have found a community where i can be 100% honest and not have my choice taken away. i will probably be making quite a few posts before my date, and i'm so relieved, all i can feel is relief. feel free to PM me if you have questions about me :))

-pigeon
sending you hugs and good thoughts. wish you peace
 
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