Venting Have a date planned. Fuck everything.

[Naked Weapon]

I'm going out the day after my birthday (a few weeks from now). I'll have a nice day, eat whatever I want, all with the knowledge that I'll get my greatest present soon. In the meantime I've stopped going to classes and doing schoolwork (sorry, father, about paying out-of-state tuition for nothing), and will break up with my boyfriend a couple days before I CTB. I used to try and maintain a level of functionality by doing what I'm expected to and dressing well and trying to keep up with "friends", but I haven't done anything but sob in bed for the past week. I can't wait to fulfil the dream that childhood me made a promise to achieve. I can't wait to stop hurting in a way that no one else seems to understand. Going away has become an obsession. What else am I supposed to do when no resource or response helps?

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best of luck in your plans, I hope that you find the freedom you search for.

 

[Dliena]

You do whatever you want/need to do OP and wishing you eternal peace/luck.

 

[major_tom]

It's sad how cheap "friendship" ends up being given what you have to pay the world in expectations.. what a world

 

[Macc_Lad_71]

I'm going out the day after my birthday (a few weeks from now). I'll have a nice day, eat whatever I want, all with the knowledge that I'll get my greatest present soon. In the meantime I've stopped going to classes and doing schoolwork (sorry, father, about paying out-of-state tuition for nothing), and will break up with my boyfriend a couple days before I CTB. I used to try and maintain a level of functionality by doing what I'm expected to and dressing well and trying to keep up with "friends", but I haven't done anything but sob in bed for the past week. I can't wait to fulfil the dream that childhood me made a promise to achieve. I can't wait to stop hurting in a way that no one else seems to understand. Going away has become an obsession. What else am I supposed to do when no resource or response helps?

WHY ARE PEOPLE ALWAYS GONNA DO IT IN A FEW WEEKS TIME......OR ON A CERTAIN DATE!

 

[Naked Weapon]

WHY ARE PEOPLE ALWAYS GONNA DO IT IN A FEW WEEKS TIME......OR ON A CERTAIN DATE!

I've had this date planned since November and, despite all odds, I'm sticking to it. I'm content with my decision.