ScaredCutter
₊✩‧₊˚౨ৎ˚₊✩‧₊ Finding a Reason ₊✩‧₊˚౨ৎ˚₊✩‧₊
- Oct 16, 2025
- 31
i just need ideas and to hear others out.
ive talked about it before but, im extremly jealous of my bf friends or "friends" he calls them. im jealous of how they get to spend time with him, what they get to talk ab and such other things. im jealous of how he gives them attention, how they get him to play with them, and the fun he has with them. i have talked about this with him and its ended badly because i just become controlling of it and try to force him to leave them for good, so i stopped bringing it up for that reason and a few more other reasons.
i want to be happy that he has friends because its smth hes talked to me about. i want to be able to trust them because i honestly hate them with my guts, i have a minor bad experience with one and i cant believe who they are. i cant even look at videos with them in it because im js paranoid (probs the wrong word) that im going to lose my bf. i'll even have dreams of things id hate to happen and wake up worried that it really happened.
trying to talk about this digs my head in and i js cant handle how i feel about it. its prbably just something small and stupid and im being dramatic over it. i just wanna stop being this way. ive tried my own ideas but only works for a period of time until im reminded of it again. i have distracted myself, spent time with my bf and whatever else i mightve done.
ive talked about it before but, im extremly jealous of my bf friends or "friends" he calls them. im jealous of how they get to spend time with him, what they get to talk ab and such other things. im jealous of how he gives them attention, how they get him to play with them, and the fun he has with them. i have talked about this with him and its ended badly because i just become controlling of it and try to force him to leave them for good, so i stopped bringing it up for that reason and a few more other reasons.
i want to be happy that he has friends because its smth hes talked to me about. i want to be able to trust them because i honestly hate them with my guts, i have a minor bad experience with one and i cant believe who they are. i cant even look at videos with them in it because im js paranoid (probs the wrong word) that im going to lose my bf. i'll even have dreams of things id hate to happen and wake up worried that it really happened.
trying to talk about this digs my head in and i js cant handle how i feel about it. its prbably just something small and stupid and im being dramatic over it. i just wanna stop being this way. ive tried my own ideas but only works for a period of time until im reminded of it again. i have distracted myself, spent time with my bf and whatever else i mightve done.
