Discussion Has it ever happened to anyone that emotional numbness just hit you out of nowhere?

[MettleSpirit41]

I am feeling very disconnected from myself and my emotions and I'm unable to feel anything or express myself from the past few days. So, for context, I have always been a very expressive and emotional person. There has been a series of unfortunate events in my life in the past few years due to which I am struggling with depression, but even during the worst of my days, I have never felt the way I am feeling now. I was always able to cry whenever I felt the need to. Even if I did not tell anyone, I could feel all the hurt that was inside me, I could feel the pain, the sadness. I could empathise with others. And I am not sure if it helps or not, but for me, being able to cry, to let it all out (for some time atleast) has helped me a lot to manage everything. But from the past few days I feel as if there was a switch for emotions inside me which has been turned off. I can't feel anything, I am not able to cry at all, so I feel as if something is bottling up inside me and I just don't have a good feeling about this and I am just not myself. The only time I have ever experienced anything similar to this is when I was on antidepressants which completely shut me off and made me numb. Has anyone else ever experienced anything like this?

Sorry for the long post

 

[Freedomatlast24]

I've been going through this on antidepressants and off. It's so unnerving, I was always so emotional...

 

[Lost Magic]

The last part has greatly resonated with me in regards to anti-depressants. I used to be a very emotive and empathic guy. Now, after having taken Prozac for close to a year, I just feel strange and out of sorts. However, my mental break-downs aren't as severe as they once were. It's just an unusual feeling ... to not feel the way I used to.

 

[BecomingTired]

I am feeling very disconnected from myself and my emotions and I'm unable to feel anything or express myself from the past few days. So, for context, I have always been a very expressive and emotional person. There has been a series of unfortunate events in my life in the past few years due to which I am struggling with depression, but even during the worst of my days, I have never felt the way I am feeling now. I was always able to cry whenever I felt the need to. Even if I did not tell anyone, I could feel all the hurt that was inside me, I could feel the pain, the sadness. I could empathise with others. And I am not sure if it helps or not, but for me, being able to cry, to let it all out (for some time atleast) has helped me a lot to manage everything. But from the past few days I feel as if there was a switch for emotions inside me which has been turned off. I can't feel anything, I am not able to cry at all, so I feel as if something is bottling up inside me and I just don't have a good feeling about this and I am just not myself. The only time I have ever experienced anything similar to this is when I was on antidepressants which completely shut me off and made me numb. Has anyone else ever experienced anything like this?

Sorry for the long post

Never been on antidepressants but it's the same for me, it usually all comes out at the worst moments though.

 

[CatLvr]

I have done this on and off my whole life. The first instance I remember I was 3, maybe 4 years old. I can even tell you where I was, and what had been going on beforehand.

I have taken antidepressants as part of a pain management program for chronic pain issues but have not found them to affect me that way. Maybe because I'm on such a low dose??

 

[pomcustard]

Yeah it happens. Sometimes I may straight up dissociate. Nothing has felt real these past few weeks to be honest but that may be because I'm planning on ctb soon.

 

[MettleSpirit41]

I've been going through this on antidepressants and off. It's so unnerving, I was always so emotional...

Yes that is exactly what I wanted to convey. It was okay when I was on antidepressants but I stopped taking them a long time ago, but this started happening in from the past 15-20 days and I am just really very scared and worried as I don't understand what is happening.

 

[MettleSpirit41]

The last part has greatly resonated with me in regards to anti-depressants. I used to be a very emotive and empathic guy. Now, after having taken Prozac for close to a year, I just feel strange and out of sorts. However, my mental break-downs aren't as severe as they once were. It's just an unusual feeling ... to not feel the way I used to.

I decided and stopped taking antidepressants all of a sudden after more than three months of usage because I was developing sexual dysfunction and I was feeling very numb emotionally. This emotional numbness that I am experiencing all of a sudden is scary because of the fact that I have not taken any antidepressants in the past 6 months but this still started happening out of nowhere.

 

[MettleSpirit41]

Yeah it happens. Sometimes I may straight up dissociate. Nothing has felt real these past few weeks to be honest but that may be because I'm planning on ctb soon.

YESSS DISSOCIATE!!. Exactly the word I was looking to find. And YESSS nothing has felt real for me too, even though I am not yet sure of if and when I would ctb.

 

[MettleSpirit41]

Never been on antidepressants but it's the same for me, it usually all comes out at the worst moments though.

That is the worst part about my situation, I JUST am not able to let it out somehow. Its frustrating and frightening at the same time. (T_T)