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naenae28

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Jan 22, 2022
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Hey I just wanted to ask anyone if they have written letters or have known anyone that has written letters before they catch the bus? I think I want to write some letters to some people for a variety of reasons. There are some people that I have hurt in life because I'm fucked up and I want them to know that I'm sorry and how much I love them. Then there are some people that I want them to know the pain that I've gone through since I was born so they can understand why I am in so much pain. Then there are some people that I just want them to know how much I love them and hope that they continue loving their life and that they achieve/receive everything they desire. I'm also thinking about writing a generalized suicide note but then I don't know I might opt out of that and just stick with writing people notes directly
 
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GodzillasBiggestFan

GodzillasBiggestFan

Godzilla's Lonely Bestie
Jan 12, 2026
166
i wrote a generalized note before one of my previous attempts. i think next time i will write individual instead though. my original note from the previous attempt had parts where i would say specific things to specific people, so maybe its better to just write separate notes anyway.
 
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existentiallinguine

existentiallinguine

female Rust Cohle
Feb 10, 2026
34
I usually write notes before my attempts. For this one, I'm going to write 3 or 4. Mostly for people who mean a lot to me or meant a lot to me and don't talk to me anymore and a general letter explaining why. Honestly, more recently I've skipped the notes because I felt like nobody would care, but I feel like this one is really going to work, and I don't feel like it's right not to say goodbye and tell the very few people who have given a shit about me at some point that it's all going to be okay, even if they've left me. There are very few people who have had a positive impact on my life and I think they deserve to know it wasn't for nothing.
 
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haibaralover

haibaralover

motion sick angel
Feb 13, 2026
15
when i was much younger, around 13 i believe, for my first attempt i did write a letter. just one page kind of saying goodbye before i went to ctb. the next two times i never did, so when i eventually failed and woke up nobody had any clue i attempted. this time though im definitely going to write something. if not a letter, then just something detailing my life. feels like a good little piece to leave for the world ya know? nobody can second guess or misconstrue why you ctb
 
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Dinozauria

Dinozauria

September 3rd 2026
Feb 8, 2026
53
I haven't written a suicide note but I will do before I attempt
 
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