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inmyhead

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May 21, 2023
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I thought I would ask this question because it's quite rare I get to speak to people who have had near death experiences.

When I was 20 I took an OD which resulted in cardiac arrest. I was found in time to be saved. But I did stop breathing and my heart did stop. I don't remember much about this time except that I knew, and had accepted, that I was going to die and there was nothing I could do about it. I was scared, a deep visceral fear that I cannot describe fully.

But then, right at the end. I remember getting flooded with loads of 'good' feelings and endorphins. All of a sudden it didn't matter that I wasn't going to get to do some of the things I wanted to. Or that I wouldnt say goodbye to my mam.

Ever since then death hasn't frightened me cause I feel like at the very last moment, it's all going to feel really good.

I woke up from a coma a few days later. I wondered if anyone had experienced anything similar.
 
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justwantpeace520

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Jun 1, 2023
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When I attempted my OD, I remember everything started moving slower and I got real hot, so I walked over to the sink and splashed my face with cold, cold water. I felt every droplet that hit my face, and it felt as euphoric as black sand (tried it once) and just fully relaxed me to where I just went back, sat on the edge of my bed and fell to the floor.

Still don't know how I ended up at the hospital
 
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inmyhead

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May 21, 2023
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When I attempted my OD, I remember everything started moving slower and I got real hot, so I walked over to the sink and splashed my face with cold, cold water. I felt every droplet that hit my face, and it felt as euphoric as black sand (tried it once) and just fully relaxed me to where I just went back, sat on the edge of my bed and fell to the floor.

Still don't know how I ended up at the hopsi
That's really interesting! It is such a bizarre feeling.
 
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Cajuncatastrophe

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Mar 28, 2023
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I was drunk at a house party and was dicking around in the swimming pool. I somehow got spun around and couldn't get a feel for my depth. My breath escaping by the millisecond, I started to panic and gulp in water. It went from sheer fear to "Well, I guess this is how I go. Wasted in a shitty swimming pool like 8 feet deep. That sucks." Just pure acceptance. Right as things went spotty and black, I felt my foot touch pool bottom. Right back into SI and kicked myself to the surface. So, so, weird.
 
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