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bellaisdonewithlife

Member
Jan 29, 2026
28
If so, was it just black or did you see something amazing like being catapulted into a different realm? I really don't know what happens when we die, but it's something I think about a lot. I can't imagine completely disappearing, but I know it's very possible that this is what happens.
 
LastNite

LastNite

Hello World
Mar 31, 2025
553
Ive had many, but not a single one of them knocked me out to see anything. My worst ones are from my childhood. I dont like to talk about them, but my most recent was a fall when I was going up the stairs. I fell backwards about 8-9 feet. My head nearly hit the concrete, but my elbows put my head in a higher position. They took the full blow. I was bleeding a bit, but didnt feel a single thing. Tbh I felt invincible because of the adrenaline rush. I only started to feel pain after everything went back to normal and when I realized I was bleeding.
 
Untoten_

Untoten_

Will be CTBing this year.
Jan 29, 2026
70
If so, was it just black or did you see something amazing like being catapulted into a different realm? I really don't know what happens when we die, but it's something I think about a lot. I can't imagine completely disappearing, but I know it's very possible that this is what happens.
Copied and a few extra details added from an earlier post of mine:


"As someone who has coded 3-4 times in one night, I can tell you.

I sat there in hospital after taking 102 citalopram and around 20 Propranolol, waking up with my shirt cut open and every single kind of sticky pad on my chest, my stomach and my torso as a whole, surrounded by doctors and nurses.

But in that moment was the most peaceful I had ever been, It was night time and I was in a treeline, ahead of me a fireplace/bonfire in a large open clearing. Sounded like a party was happening, music, drinks, laughter (bare in mind I didn't know what was going on or what I had just attempted) but there was nobody there at all, just disembodied voices and sounds, I could hear it but couldn't see anyone, but something told me NOT to sit down, so I didn't and that was when I woke up."

One other detail is I remember asking a nurse what happened while I woke up with every single tube imaginable hanging out of my body, there were curtains drawn over me and everything. I still audibly remember my mother who walked in looking at me at the phone saying "they have him on everything" when she first walked in.

No the nurse didn't answer she just looked kind of pale faced and walked out.
 
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bellaisdonewithlife

Member
Jan 29, 2026
28
Copied and a few extra details added from an earlier post of mine:


"As someone who has coded 3-4 times in one night, I can tell you.

I sat there in hospital after taking 102 citalopram and around 20 Propranolol, waking up with my shirt cut open and every single kind of sticky pad on my chest, my stomach and my torso as a whole, surrounded by doctors and nurses.

But in that moment was the most peaceful I had ever been, It was night time and I was in a treeline, ahead of me a fireplace/bonfire in a large open clearing. Sounded like a party was happening, music, drinks, laughter (bare in mind I didn't know what was going on or what I had just attempted) but there was nobody there at all, just disembodied voices and sounds, I could hear it but couldn't see anyone, but something told me NOT to sit down, so I didn't and that was when I woke up."

One other detail is I remember asking a nurse what happened while I woke up with every single tube imaginable hanging out of my body, there were curtains drawn over me and everything. I still audibly remember my mother who walked in looking at me at the phone saying "they have him on everything" when she first walked in.

No the nurse didn't answer she just looked kind of pale faced and walked out.
Thank you for sharing! Wow so by staying here longer we might be missing out on a party haha.
 
bananaolympus

bananaolympus

Specialist
Dec 12, 2024
379
I didn't die but i was in critical condition for over a month i just dreamed
 
Arvayn

Arvayn

Face the end.
Nov 11, 2025
280
After starving for a very long time, my immune system was weakened enough that I was in danger of death. I caught a bacterial illness, where it eventually made its way into my blood, before reaching my heart. I passed out from an irregular heartbeat and had the ambulance called on me. Then, I woke up quickly... And my heart croaked again, this time from cardiac arrest. I lost consciousness and life signs.

The actual dying process was extremely peaceful. I thought I would be afraid or panicked, but I wasn't. I just felt myself slowly slipping away from the world, with this tranquil feeling overtaking me... I was extremely lightheaded and dizzy from hypoglycemia, so that might have helped.
As for actually being dead, it's a non-experience. It doesn't feel like anything. I cannot describe it, because "I" was not there anymore. It simply just felt like I got instantly teleported forwards in time; one second, I'm on the floor. The very next second, I'm on the bed with paramedics at my side.
 
dewdfish

dewdfish

Student
Nov 30, 2025
115
When I OD'd, I died for a couple of minutes and woke up to the nurses and doctors resuscitating me. All I can say is that it felt peaceful, like going to sleep and not seeing anything. I don't think I have ever felt that much peace before and it makes me believe that there's no afterlife, since I didn't see anything, if I had just died, I wouldn't even know.
 
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bellaisdonewithlife

Member
Jan 29, 2026
28
When I OD'd, I died for a couple of minutes and woke up to the nurses and doctors resuscitating me. All I can say is that it felt peaceful, like going to sleep and not seeing anything. I don't think I have ever felt that much peace before and it makes me believe that there's no afterlife, since I didn't see anything, if I had just died, I wouldn't even know.
That's the problem for me. Some people see nothing and some people see something. So confusing haha. I just wanna know the secrets of the universe.
 

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