orange
Experienced
- Nov 19, 2021
- 243
It's so hard to study and concentrate on exams when all my mind wants to do is ruminate and fantasize about suicide. I've been awake for two hours now but haven't been able to get out of bed, I feel like if I stop looking at my screen and be alone with my thoughts for a second it'll be unbearable. I've already lost the entire morning bc I woke up late in the first place.
I'm supposedly studying for my dream job, the thing I told people I wanted to be when I was 5, and I feel even more suicidal than 2 years ago. I've also tried working, still suicidal. I've tried getting therapy, they won't return my calls or answer emails lmfao.
Thank you for providing me a place to vent.
I'm supposedly studying for my dream job, the thing I told people I wanted to be when I was 5, and I feel even more suicidal than 2 years ago. I've also tried working, still suicidal. I've tried getting therapy, they won't return my calls or answer emails lmfao.
Thank you for providing me a place to vent.