Happy birthday ig

[Gaming Chicken]

So. I had my birthday just a few days ago and as expected it ended up being a long day of constant ideation. Anyone else get Uber depressed on their b-day? Anywho, I'm currently a NEET and am on the verge of losing my place to stay. I'm broke and my license and reg have both expired as it was my 21st birthday. The only reason I've stayed around this long was simply to help my best friend get through some tough times. But idk how much longer I can keep it up. And how could I know whether she's prepared to go on without me? In the past she's expressed that she needs me and wouldn't be able to go on without me, but communication over the past month or so has been extremely limited but with little indication as to any issues that may have occurred. Would it be selfish to ctb just as things start working out for her? I admit I haven't thought this far ahead as I didn't see things working out the way they did and my deadline for ctbing has been moved up

 

[CentreMid]

Yeah. My birthday is a stark reminder that I'm still alive. I hate it

 

[CellarBoy]

So. I had my birthday just a few days ago and as expected it ended up being a long day of constant ideation. Anyone else get Uber depressed on their b-day? Anywho, I'm currently a NEET and am on the verge of losing my place to stay. I'm broke and my license and reg have both expired as it was my 21st birthday. The only reason I've stayed around this long was simply to help my best friend get through some tough times. But idk how much longer I can keep it up. And how could I know whether she's prepared to go on without me? In the past she's expressed that she needs me and wouldn't be able to go on without me, but communication over the past month or so has been extremely limited but with little indication as to any issues that may have occurred. Would it be selfish to ctb just as things start working out for her? I admit I haven't thought this far ahead as I didn't see things working out the way they did and my deadline for ctbing has been moved up

I feel the exact same way about my birthday. It's just a long, long countdown.

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't like what birthdays represent which is managing to exist for yet another year in this hellish world, I've existed for far too long at this point, there could never be anything "happy" about the day in which all the suffering started. I also hate the thought of ageing, I don't wish to age just to inevitably decay from old age, such a thing sounds so horrific to me.