TAW122
Emissary of the right to die.
- Aug 30, 2018
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During this stupid month full pro-lifers virtue signaling to their hearts' content, here is a platitude/quote that is not as common, but cliché and annoying. It serves nothing more than to dismiss, ignore, and trivialize what a person has to say. This phrase (I apologize if it isn't word for word, but the meaning is still the same) is "You control/make your own happiness!", "You choose whether to be happy or not!", "Happiness is up to you/what you make of it!" etc. This is (was) a statement that was said by many people, including my beloved ladyfriend (which was something that increased my ragefuel and CTBfuel). I didn't confide much of my life to my so called 'ladyfriend' but I did voice my needs and wants, only to be misunderstood, dismissed, invalidated, and trivialized! 
Needless to say, my relations further soured and bittered even more since then.
It's rather sad and tragic (for me at least) that someone who played a pivotal role in me not CTB'ing in May 2019 made a turn for the worst. She was my lifefuel, then CTBfuel, and of course, ragefuel. Lifefuel in earlier parts of 2019 due to a good, decent encounter I had with her (despite it being platonic - of all things), CTBfuel because of what happened to sour things near end of 2019, and of course ragefuel due to learning (with evidence) that she is a pro-lifer. If anything, this would likely be a flashpoint (on top of all existing circumstances and factors) towards my CTB'ing in the coming future. In an utopia though, this would never have been the case, but alas, we don't live in such an universe. We live in a dystopia where we aren't even allowed to "freely" exit without consequence yet aren't given anything (the world tells us we aren't entitled to anything nor owed anything but forced to live).
Anyways, I digress, but back to the topic at hand. The happiness statement really is a way for the speaker to dismiss, invalidate, and trivialize one anothers' woes and plights while tooting his/her own ego and getting the praises of his/her peers around him/her!
Needless to say, my relations further soured and bittered even more since then.It's rather sad and tragic (for me at least) that someone who played a pivotal role in me not CTB'ing in May 2019 made a turn for the worst. She was my lifefuel, then CTBfuel, and of course, ragefuel. Lifefuel in earlier parts of 2019 due to a good, decent encounter I had with her (despite it being platonic - of all things), CTBfuel because of what happened to sour things near end of 2019, and of course ragefuel due to learning (with evidence) that she is a pro-lifer. If anything, this would likely be a flashpoint (on top of all existing circumstances and factors) towards my CTB'ing in the coming future. In an utopia though, this would never have been the case, but alas, we don't live in such an universe. We live in a dystopia where we aren't even allowed to "freely" exit without consequence yet aren't given anything (the world tells us we aren't entitled to anything nor owed anything but forced to live).
Anyways, I digress, but back to the topic at hand. The happiness statement really is a way for the speaker to dismiss, invalidate, and trivialize one anothers' woes and plights while tooting his/her own ego and getting the praises of his/her peers around him/her!
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