Hans Voralberg
Experienced
- Nov 6, 2021
- 229
So as i thought before my girlfriend can't have children now we both know it for sure pregnancy will mess her hormons and accelerate sickness It took me a while to convince her that i am ok with not having children. I planned to have one child but in case i have to choose i will always choose her over my image of family. I will be happy to giving her love and reciving this love back. We are both sick due to PTSD and depression. We may both Die because of it. Literally Only meds and love are separating me and her from suicide( this is really thin veil but it will last as long as we have strenght to support each other i believe in it) and i know it. We love each other so much. I am happy that i will spend time which has left me and her together loving each other. Sickness will never left US relapse is unevitable it will just take longer in my case. It is really bittersweet ending but i am happy that i survived my attempt. That i met Gosia my girlfriend. That i experienced my first kiss with her and we both will have some emotionall and physical intimacy with each other. I am happy.
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We know that we will die without each other. I told her that if sickness will take her away from me by suicide IT won't be her fault. I know how i felt few moments before my attempt i had no free will and consciousnes to stop it i don't want her to surfer more thinking that i will be mad or angry at her because of her CTB in future and leaving me by this way. She told me that i am too good Man for her hugged me and told she loves me. We are ready to spend time which is left for US together. I really like Doctor WHO TV serie there is in this show this sentence and it perfectly sum up my and Gosia story :Happily every after doesn't mean forever it means time just a little time (with person we love).
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We know that we will die without each other. I told her that if sickness will take her away from me by suicide IT won't be her fault. I know how i felt few moments before my attempt i had no free will and consciousnes to stop it i don't want her to surfer more thinking that i will be mad or angry at her because of her CTB in future and leaving me by this way. She told me that i am too good Man for her hugged me and told she loves me. We are ready to spend time which is left for US together. I really like Doctor WHO TV serie there is in this show this sentence and it perfectly sum up my and Gosia story :Happily every after doesn't mean forever it means time just a little time (with person we love).