user667
Student
- May 11, 2020
- 255
my family found my SN before i could ctb so they are currently not allowing me to leave the house or be alone except for when i sleep. this is the only way i can think of to do it. i have a cheap belt from target that i could use. i tried putting one end through the buckle to create a loop and pulling to close it around my neck then taking the loose end and sticking it through a sliding open window, then closing the window so the belt is between the frame and the window. i then sat down to see if it would hold my weight and cause the loop to close around my neck and it did both. i need to make sure this works so i have some questions. will this work? do i need to make any changes to my plan? how long do i need? the belt does not come out of the window with my weight but it does when i pull with a lot of force and effort is that a problem? will i thrash around and make a lot of noise as i die? my family will be asleep and if i wake them up they will find me before i die. also i have tried pulling the belt as tight as possible around my neck and i get discomfort from the sensation like not being able to swallow or having something tight around my neck but i dont get dizzy or pass out? pls help i rlly need help