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orangepulp

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Oct 30, 2019
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Got the rope, got the location, wrote letters for my family. I feel at peace. Thanks for the help everyone.
 
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Hadenuf

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Aug 3, 2019
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In a few days I will going to
 
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Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
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I wish you peace
 
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RedBuns

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Good luck
 
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orangepulp

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Oct 30, 2019
43
can u share your reasons for ctb?
Sure. I have been depressed for 5 years, with no relief. This has deformed my brain and made me struggle to work, socialise, have hobbies and generally be motivated to do anything. I gain no enjoyment from anything, yet feel so miserable when things go wrong. Sick of struggling everyday just to suffer the next. I am tired. Believe me, I did try and make this life thing work.
 
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bea1974

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Aug 7, 2019
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I wish you a peaceful and safe journey. All best wishes.
 
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lymbo

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Oct 12, 2019
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hope you find peace
 
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harlope

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Feb 17, 2019
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be in peace <33
 
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MidLifeCrisis

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Sep 21, 2019
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I am sorry to hear of your five-year struggle with depression. I have been suffering with it for a few months, I know what it is like. I fantasize about suicide every day.

Are you sure you have explored all options for improving your condition? Are there any life changes you could make which might improve your situation?

Whatever you decide to do, I hope you find peace.
 
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Jen0804

Gone
Feb 24, 2019
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Sending all the love I can to you my friend. I'm so sorry it came to this.
Forgive me for asking bu may I ask


Why today? Have you planned this for a long time? Has something tipped you to make it come sooner ?

I apologise if you would rather not talk
Please accept the hugs I'm sending you
You'll be in my thoughts

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Hotsackage

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Mar 11, 2019
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Think ima do it tonight. This is unbearable. I wish you luck.
 
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Nem

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Sep 3, 2018
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All the best, hopefully things go okay whether you go ahead or decide against it
Peace/hugs
 
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DoNotLet2

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Oct 14, 2019
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hopefully it will be better for you on the other side
 
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ManWithNoName

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Feb 2, 2019
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Got the rope, got the location, wrote letters for my family. I feel at peace. Thanks for the help everyone.
I too wish you peace. And if you do not mind my asking, will you do partial suspension or full?
 
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orangepulp

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Oct 30, 2019
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I am sorry to hear of your five-year struggle with depression. I have been suffering with it for a few months, I know what it is like. I fantasize about suicide every day.

Are you sure you have explored all options for improving your condition? Are there any life changes you could make which might improve your situation?

Whatever you decide to do, I hope you find peace.

Thanks, I've tried therapy and five different antidepressants. None helped. All my life changes just end up making my life worse unfortunately.
Think ima do it tonight. This is unbearable. I wish you luck.
I understand, good luck yourself.
 
Return2Dust

Return2Dust

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Sep 28, 2019
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I wish you a peaceful exit, friend.
 
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orangepulp

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Oct 30, 2019
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Sending all the love I can to you my friend. I'm so sorry it came to this.
Forgive me for asking bu may I ask


Why today? Have you planned this for a long time? Has something tipped you to make it come sooner ?

I apologise if you would rather not talk
Please accept the hugs I'm sending you
You'll be in my thoughts

X J
Thanks, I wish it didn't either. I never planned a specific date but these past few weeks everyday I have been wanting to do it. There is something I really don't want to have to do tommorow so felt tonight was my best bet. I went to the tree but found the rope I brought was too short, luckily I had a longer piece back in my room. Trying to decide if I will hang in my room or walk back to the tree, it is raining pretty hard.
 
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Adonis

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Nov 2, 2019
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Got the rope, got the location, wrote letters for my family. I feel at peace. Thanks for the help everyone.
Wait i need your help where is the carotid arterys located? I feel pulses in my neck on the left and right and i don't think that's it anyway how can i know that i got my arterys?
 
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andy69

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May 23, 2019
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Hope you find peace.
 
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Thisisjustadream

Member
Nov 3, 2019
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Please, Think long and hard before you do it.
 
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LonelyLight

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May 31, 2019
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I hope you find the peace you are looking for
 
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May 8, 2019
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May you find the peace you are searching for.
 
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Ratherbeskinny

"Insert profound quote here."
Oct 28, 2019
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Wait i need your help where is the carotid arterys located? I feel pulses in my neck on the left and right and i don't think that's it anyway how can i know that i got my arterys?

I don't mean to start a fight or anything, but how can you not see how inappropriate your reply to this topic is? I've seen you asking this question everywhere today and I understand that you're just trying to get your questions answered like many of us, but I can't be the only one who finds this inappropriate right now, right?

OP, I hope you find peace one way or another.
 
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howard

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Sep 13, 2019
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Good luck orange pulp...I wish you peace whatever you do tonight.
 
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Mloureiro

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Oct 7, 2019
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Sure. I have been depressed for 5 years, with no relief. This has deformed my brain and made me struggle to work, socialise, have hobbies and generally be motivated to do anything. I gain no enjoyment from anything, yet feel so miserable when things go wrong. Sick of struggling everyday just to suffer the next. I am tired. Believe me, I did try and make this life thing work.
Believe you, feel the same. Safe journey my friend. Meet you on the other side....
 
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LonelyLight

Warlock
May 31, 2019
779
I don't mean to start a fight or anything, but how can you not see how inappropriate your reply to this topic is? I've seen you asking this question everywhere today and I understand that you're just trying to get your questions answered like many of us, but I can't be the only one who finds this inappropriate right now, right?

OP, I hope you find peace one way or another.
Agreed. The OP is making the biggest decision they will ever make, they really don't need to answer questions like this.
I also understand you want answers @Adonis but it's a matter of time and place. A forum search will bring you plenty of information, also in the hanging and night night threads you'll find some information.
Perhaps make your own thread asking about it either if you haven't already? I know you don't mean harm by asking here but it's kinda not a good time. Best of luck with your search, and I hope you dont take me up as rude!!
 
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Adonis

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Nov 2, 2019
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I don't mean to start a fight or anything, but how can you not see how inappropriate your reply to this topic is? I've seen you asking this question everywhere today and I understand that you're just trying to get your questions answered like many of us, but I can't be the only one who finds this inappropriate right now, right?

OP, I hope you find peace one way or another.
Oh sorry i understand
Agreed. The OP is making the biggest decision they will ever make, they really don't need to answer questions like this.
I also understand you want answers @Adonis but it's a matter of time and place. A forum search will bring you plenty of information, also in the hanging and night night threads you'll find some information.
Perhaps make your own thread asking about it either if you haven't already? I know you don't mean harm by asking here but it's kinda not a good time. Best of luck with your search, and I hope you dont take me up as rude!!
Oh not at all sorry guys didn't mean too
Oh sorry i understand

Oh not at all sorry guys didn't mean too
Sorry to the OP as well i really am
 
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MeltingHeart

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Sep 9, 2019
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Oh sorry i understand

Oh not at all sorry guys didn't mean too
@Adonis - try in Resources there is a thread that explains it in more detail.
 
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