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Final Escape
I’ve been here too long
- Jul 8, 2018
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Oh man I might have ate too much lol! I feel weird haha!
Anxiety?When I was coming down it got a little scary. Glad it's over jeez! That was rough there towards the ending.
No nothing got worked out but I had this moment or short window where I hit this terrifying blocked feeling. It was as if I was trying to breakthrough to a trauma but I couldn't move to figure out what it is, what the source is. It was like I was at the door to a past trauma but I could not go inside because a huge locked door with guards won't let me in to see what it is or what happened in the past that is causing me to struggle to move forward. I guess many traumas just sit there lodged inside the brain and u need professional help to get to it. When u are very little u have no recall until a certain age so if parents or someone did something to u, u won't remember but u probably have emotional memory. I don't think I was raped as a baby or anything but I think it was just my mother being shitty to me as an infant.The title made me laugh and click in here. I hope the rough patch didn't last too long. Did you work out anything lingering in your mind?
That's a tough one. That's like telling someone that you heard someone else talkin about them but that you promised not to say what or who, only way worse than that. The abuse doesn't have to be sexual, and to an infant even being ignored regularly could have some pretty nasty long term effects even without actively doing anything *to* it.No nothing got worked out but I had this moment or short window where I hit this terrifying blocked feeling. It was as if I was trying to breakthrough to a trauma but I couldn't move to figure out what it is, what the source is. It was like I was at the door to a past trauma but I could not go inside because a huge locked door with guards won't let me in to see what it is or what happened in the past that is causing me to struggle to move forward. I guess many traumas just sit there lodged inside the brain and u need professional help to get to it. When u are very little u have no recall until a certain age so if parents or someone did something to u, u won't remember but u probably have emotional memory. I don't think I was raped as a baby or anything but I think it was just my mother being shitty to me as an infant.
The taste is the reason a lot of people eat them as chocolate truffles.I've wanted to try mushrooms for ages, they grow down the road from me when the weather's right and my brother always goes and picks them, I'm not sure I could stand eating them though, I know my brother makes them into like a tea. Have fun
I used to chase them with Jack Daniels or orange juice..They always get stuck all in my molars,so I'd make sure I had a big bottle on hand.The taste is the reason a lot of people eat them as chocolate truffles.