Halfway through meto regimen

[woxihuanni]

This is not a goodbye thread, I will self-ban if nothing holds me back and I go through with it. Because the date I had in my mind was a bit further.

Just wanted to throw it out there. I've been told to die so started meto yesterday. They even agreed to have my remains cremated. Very nice of them.

 

[CaptainT]

Fair winds, hope you're feeling as ok as can be @woxihuanni

 

[SoupSnakes]

So sorry someone said that to you. Hope you're okay and find peace x

 

[woxihuanni]

So sorry someone said that to you. Hope you're okay and find peace x

They said they fully accepted it was the consequence of their choices, and were fine with it. Except that it was Ferme's choice all along, in something they had no say in. Ferme is their puppet master.

 

[Hunter100]

They said they fully accepted it was the consequence of their choices, and were fine with it. Except that it was Ferme's choice all along, in something they had no say in. Ferme is their puppet master.

May I ask what you mean by Ferme?

I'm sorry as I do not know your situation or story.

 

[woxihuanni]

May I ask what you mean by Ferme?

I'm sorry as I do not know your situation or story.

It is a creature that pulls the strings of my ex partner. Not ex partner as in we fucked via tinder, as in de facto marriage.

 

[Hunter100]

It is a creature that pulls the strings of my ex partner. Not ex partner as in we fucked via tinder, as in de facto marriage.

So this is about a tinder date that stayed with his girlfriend? Sorry just trying to understand

 

[woxihuanni]

No. It s ok, it doesnt matter.

 

[JimFord99]

Why not tell us the whole story so we can understand? Would be interesting to know if you share it with us.

 

[woxihuanni]

Sorry, the story does not matter anymore. I'm going through with the regimen. Tomorrow is it.

 

[jgm63]

If you decide to proceed, then I wish you a peaceful journey.
Whatever you decide, everything will be okay.

 

[puppy9]

May peace parades you all the way

 

[woxihuanni]

Indeed I'm going tonight. Been pulling it closer and closer. So it is.

 

[WhiteDespair]

Be well.

 

[LMFAO FOCKERS]

I hate to put words in @woxihuanni mouth but I think her story and situation overwhelms her so much to the point where its useless to recall the fine details.

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Her husband is involved in some kind of cult that may or may not involve a woman. Possibly his ex-wife? ...Or its a false God called Ferme.

Woxi idolizes her husbands intellect. They were well matched. She felt their marital bond was deeper than some outside force of manipulation.

woxi a wise, force of nature herself and feels almost powerless to help her situation. She has been gutted. There is nothing for her to recoup because this bond was probably one of the only things she held in high regard in her life.

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@woxihuanni I hope you feel peace, power and strength in your final hours. (My summary was to help quell the questions, not to detract from your wishes.)

 

[Are you lost too?]

I wish you safe travels and that you can find the peace you deserve

 

[zeroambition]

I hope you find peace and happiness

 

[arelia]

I'm sending you hugs and love as you move forward. You know I wish there was another way but I hope your travels will be comfortable when the time comes. If you want to IM then message me, otherwise I'll just hang around this thread until you're gone.

edit: and it's ok if you want to change your mind and put it off a little longer. We're on your side with whatever you choose.

 

[Wayfaerer]

So this is about a tinder date that stayed with his girlfriend? Sorry just trying to understand

No, as in life-partner and not some random lay.

It comes as a shock that you're leaving so suddenly but good luck, I hope it goes smoothly.

 

[Hunter100]

I hate to put words in @woxihuanni mouth but I think her story and situation overwhelms her so much to the point where its useless to recall the fine details.

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Her husband is involved in some kind of cult that may or may not involve a woman. Possibly his ex-wife? ...Or its a false God called Ferme.

Woxi idolizes her husbands intellect. They were well matched. She felt their marital bond was deeper than some outside force of manipulation.

woxi a wise, force of nature herself and feels almost powerless to help her situation. She has been gutted. There is nothing for her to recoup because this bond was probably one of the only things she held in high regard in her life.

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@woxihuanni I hope you feel peace, power and strength in your final hours. (My summary was to help quell the questions, not to detract from your wishes.)

Jesus, that sounds like some Netflix special. No wonder she is at the end of her rope. We all have a story. Some are more sadly interesting (human nature I guess) then others and this definitely sounds like one.

OP I hope your last moments are filled with some kind of peace. But know there is support out there if your able to seek it out. I belong to a battered women's group and they have been more supportive then any "mental health" asshat out there. I wish you the best.

 

[noctiva]

Wo xi huan ni, F.
-M

 

[woxihuanni]

I thank you all from the bottom of my heart. You have kept me going so far and did not leave me alone to die, either.

Somebody tipped my ex partner off. They caught me with a couple of hours to go until my last meto. I have avoided hospitalisation. Right now I don't even know how I feel. I'm sorry for the fuss I caused, but I honestly did not expect a tip off.

 

[SinisterKid]

Tomorrow is another day and you have absolutely NOTHING to apologise for. Take it easy, be kind to yourself and try and get some sleep.

 

[jgm63]

I hope you are okay

 

[woxihuanni]

Thank you, I am so exhausted I'm not feeling anything at all right now. Just exhausted.

 

[jgm63]

It might be a good idea to setup a new user name, and avoid posting too much information that might help to identify you....

Thank you, I am so exhausted I'm not feeling anything at all right now. Just exhausted.

Please take some good rest.
It will be okay. But for now, just rest.
Everything is going to be okay.

 

[woxihuanni]

It might be a good idea to setup a new user name, and avoid posting too much information that might help to identify you....

Please take some good rest.
It will be okay. But for now, just rest.
Everything is going to be okay.

Thank you I will go to bed now...

 

[jgm63]

Thank you I will go to bed now...

God bless and good night. I hope you get a beautiful rest.

 

[Lethe]

This Ferme character sounds like some ancient elder demon from beyond the veil or something, from the way you describe it. Yikes. Regardless, I hope you stay safe and make whatever choice that you feel is best.

 

[Meretlein]

I hope you find the peace you deserve.