takuyangel
[ should've been born a deer ]
- Feb 19, 2025
- 74
I've been really, really, really contemplating this method over and over in my head. And I truly think it's my best bet.
My plan is to fire one 9mm bullet—two if I'm able to—from a distance of 1"-2" pointed directly at my heart. And that should be all I need to do the trick. Once the pericardium ruptures, my blood pressure will essentially drop to zero, leading me to black out in seconds. That's why people seem to "die instantly" from a bullet to the heart, in reality they're losing consciousness instantly and dying minutes later. Yeah it'll probably hurt for a little bit, but whoopty-doo. I'm sure I won't mind for too long.
To answer the obvious question of "Why not just aim for the brain stem": I don't want a closed casket funeral. I figure that the least I can do for my family is to appear presentable after I die, so that includes holding onto the back half of my head. I understand there are other methods which would do the same thing such as SN or CO, but I don't trust myself to actively plan and commit myself to such a timely method , I fear my SI will be overwhelming. Pulling a trigger; however, is something that I can do instinctively. And if I DO trust myself to do one thing, It's to make impulsive decisions. I turn 21 later this year and will be able to buy a gun immediately after. If anyone has any concerns or suggestions about this, feel free to let me know! ^^3
My plan is to fire one 9mm bullet—two if I'm able to—from a distance of 1"-2" pointed directly at my heart. And that should be all I need to do the trick. Once the pericardium ruptures, my blood pressure will essentially drop to zero, leading me to black out in seconds. That's why people seem to "die instantly" from a bullet to the heart, in reality they're losing consciousness instantly and dying minutes later. Yeah it'll probably hurt for a little bit, but whoopty-doo. I'm sure I won't mind for too long.
To answer the obvious question of "Why not just aim for the brain stem": I don't want a closed casket funeral. I figure that the least I can do for my family is to appear presentable after I die, so that includes holding onto the back half of my head. I understand there are other methods which would do the same thing such as SN or CO, but I don't trust myself to actively plan and commit myself to such a timely method , I fear my SI will be overwhelming. Pulling a trigger; however, is something that I can do instinctively. And if I DO trust myself to do one thing, It's to make impulsive decisions. I turn 21 later this year and will be able to buy a gun immediately after. If anyone has any concerns or suggestions about this, feel free to let me know! ^^3
