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Bleak
Student
- Nov 10, 2021
- 178
Unrelated to suicide, but does anyone else feel really guilty when they get presents or someone does something nice for them? I've gotten a few presents from extended family for Xmas and instead of gratitude my heart actually sinks a little bit. I don't know why I can't just feel grateful like I did when I was little. I get this way for any act of kindness. I guess it's partly feeling undeserving and also like I cannot return kindness properly. I can go through the gestures but it's like my heart doesn't have any real warmth or generosity towards others anymore which is very disturbing.